- Jun 27, 2021
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- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
For the last 7.xx years God has put me in 3 relationships with women who have cheated. The last cheater was for 3 years to the day. I feel like God did that for my previous cheating in past relationships.
I am broken. I thought God was merciful and gracious, but he made me to suffer in the same way I made women suffer in my past brokenness. He didn't care that I grew emotionally to now detest my past. He made me to suffer exponentially for my past transgressions.
Please don't tell me it wasn't God or it was my bad choices. I believe God has spoken to me through dreams in my life. That is the only explanation that I can come up with when I have the prophetic dreams that I have had. I had so many prophetic dreams about the last woman. Weird thing is during the 3 years, he never spoke to reveal her infidelity until the 3 years concluded. Once the 3 years were up, he just bombarded me with revelatory dreams if her infidelity that have now proven to be. It's like he wanted me with her like a prison sentence for the last 3 years.
I feel like I can never trust God again. I feel like I don't want anything to do with him since he was so wicked and vengeful against me. It's just like his rage against David. I don't want anything to do with ANYONE like that. He knew my heart changed and desired better. He didn't have to punish me like that.
Any kind words, encouragement and/or prayers are much appreciated.
*See post #50. I finally got my answer from God!!
I am broken. I thought God was merciful and gracious, but he made me to suffer in the same way I made women suffer in my past brokenness. He didn't care that I grew emotionally to now detest my past. He made me to suffer exponentially for my past transgressions.
Please don't tell me it wasn't God or it was my bad choices. I believe God has spoken to me through dreams in my life. That is the only explanation that I can come up with when I have the prophetic dreams that I have had. I had so many prophetic dreams about the last woman. Weird thing is during the 3 years, he never spoke to reveal her infidelity until the 3 years concluded. Once the 3 years were up, he just bombarded me with revelatory dreams if her infidelity that have now proven to be. It's like he wanted me with her like a prison sentence for the last 3 years.
I feel like I can never trust God again. I feel like I don't want anything to do with him since he was so wicked and vengeful against me. It's just like his rage against David. I don't want anything to do with ANYONE like that. He knew my heart changed and desired better. He didn't have to punish me like that.
Any kind words, encouragement and/or prayers are much appreciated.
*See post #50. I finally got my answer from God!!
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