I have read every web site or piece of information that I can find regarding these topics. I don't know what to do now. I am on meds for depression now because that is all that my gp feels that my problem is. I know it looks like a scary list, but it is even scarier to me that I have prety much all the characteristics of the following signs of BPD.
1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
2. A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal
relationships characterized by alternating between
extremes of idealization and devaluation.
3. Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable
self-image or sense of self; or sense of long-term goals;
or career choices, types of friends desired or values
preferred.
4. Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially
self-damaging: for example; spending, sex, substance
abuse, and binge eating.
5. Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or
self-mutilating behavior.
6. Affective instability: marked shifts from baseline mood to
depression, irritability, or anxiety, usually lasting a
few hours and only rarely more than a few days.
7. Chronic feelings of emptiness.
8. Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling
anger; frequent displays of temper.
9. Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe
dissociative symptoms.
Borderline Personality Disorder is not one "disorder". It is to a great degree a collection of disorders that co-exist and often feed off of each other in ways that make life very difficult for people diagnosed with it.
BPD may co-exist with: Post traumatic stress disorder Mood disorders Panic/anxiety disorders Substance abuse (54% of BPs also have this problem) Gender identity disorder Attention deficit disorder Eating disorders Multiple personality disorder Obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I am too embarassed to tell anyone close to me that I am having such scary thoughts.
Any thoughts or outreach from anyone that has been through a similar experience would be very welcome. Thank you, Vanessa
1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
2. A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal
relationships characterized by alternating between
extremes of idealization and devaluation.
3. Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable
self-image or sense of self; or sense of long-term goals;
or career choices, types of friends desired or values
preferred.
4. Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially
self-damaging: for example; spending, sex, substance
abuse, and binge eating.
5. Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or
self-mutilating behavior.
6. Affective instability: marked shifts from baseline mood to
depression, irritability, or anxiety, usually lasting a
few hours and only rarely more than a few days.
7. Chronic feelings of emptiness.
8. Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling
anger; frequent displays of temper.
9. Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe
dissociative symptoms.
Borderline Personality Disorder is not one "disorder". It is to a great degree a collection of disorders that co-exist and often feed off of each other in ways that make life very difficult for people diagnosed with it.
BPD may co-exist with: Post traumatic stress disorder Mood disorders Panic/anxiety disorders Substance abuse (54% of BPs also have this problem) Gender identity disorder Attention deficit disorder Eating disorders Multiple personality disorder Obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I am too embarassed to tell anyone close to me that I am having such scary thoughts. Any thoughts or outreach from anyone that has been through a similar experience would be very welcome. Thank you, Vanessa
