- Dec 28, 2018
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Hello I'm new here and would describe myself as a Christian "truther". A truther is a person who doesn't accept the mainstream narrative about news, politics, society etc and goes digging for the "truth" elsewhere.
I have found out a lot of truth in this world and I realise that the world stage is just all lies. I am well aware now that the devil is currently in charge and I also believe that we are soon to be entering the tribulation (my estimate is less than a decade from now)
I am the only person around that feels this way. My partner is not a truther and is a agnostic. My family are lukewarm/ worldly Roman Catholics and most of my friends are atheistic.
It was through digging for the truth that I became a born again Christian back in April this year.
I don't struggle with faith, my faith is solid and it often is the only thing in my life that keeps me going. It is the only truth.
The problem is that I don't want to be in the world anymore. I see through all the lies and the deceit and it makes me ill.
I have had a lot of abuse and bullying in my life and I thought that if I found the truth and faith then I would find peace. Yes I do find peace and comfort in God, Jesus and the indwelling of the Holy Spirit but I just don't want to be here on earth anymore. I want to go to the Father now! There is nothing here for me anymore. Life has no interest for me and being with God is all I want so being on a fallen earth is like torture.
I decided not to celebrate Christmas this year because of its pagan roots but because I was feeling flat anyway I just was depressed the whole time and everyone doing the usual stuff without me made things worse for me.
Recently God has spoken to me. He wants me to walk towards Christ in my life. He wants me to leave the burning and collapsing building that was my old life and walk towards Christ who is on the mountain in front of me. I know that he wants me to walk on air towards Christ. To not look at the burning building behind me and not look down. To trust Jesus with all my might and walk on air. Just as Peter tried to walk on water. (I don't mean literally. I'm not suicidal)
What this is the walk of Faith. I need to put all my trust in Jesus. Trust in Him for everything and not look back like Lot's wife did and not look down like Peter did. Walk in Faith alone towards my Saviour with his arms open to meet me.
I know what I have to do I just need to do it. At the moment I am clinging to the burning an collapsing building as it is all I know. It is what I know for the whole of my life.
Please pray for me as I make the leap of faith.
I am leaving the burning building and walking through the air towards Jesus.
I have found out a lot of truth in this world and I realise that the world stage is just all lies. I am well aware now that the devil is currently in charge and I also believe that we are soon to be entering the tribulation (my estimate is less than a decade from now)
I am the only person around that feels this way. My partner is not a truther and is a agnostic. My family are lukewarm/ worldly Roman Catholics and most of my friends are atheistic.
It was through digging for the truth that I became a born again Christian back in April this year.
I don't struggle with faith, my faith is solid and it often is the only thing in my life that keeps me going. It is the only truth.
The problem is that I don't want to be in the world anymore. I see through all the lies and the deceit and it makes me ill.
I have had a lot of abuse and bullying in my life and I thought that if I found the truth and faith then I would find peace. Yes I do find peace and comfort in God, Jesus and the indwelling of the Holy Spirit but I just don't want to be here on earth anymore. I want to go to the Father now! There is nothing here for me anymore. Life has no interest for me and being with God is all I want so being on a fallen earth is like torture.
I decided not to celebrate Christmas this year because of its pagan roots but because I was feeling flat anyway I just was depressed the whole time and everyone doing the usual stuff without me made things worse for me.
Recently God has spoken to me. He wants me to walk towards Christ in my life. He wants me to leave the burning and collapsing building that was my old life and walk towards Christ who is on the mountain in front of me. I know that he wants me to walk on air towards Christ. To not look at the burning building behind me and not look down. To trust Jesus with all my might and walk on air. Just as Peter tried to walk on water. (I don't mean literally. I'm not suicidal)
What this is the walk of Faith. I need to put all my trust in Jesus. Trust in Him for everything and not look back like Lot's wife did and not look down like Peter did. Walk in Faith alone towards my Saviour with his arms open to meet me.
I know what I have to do I just need to do it. At the moment I am clinging to the burning an collapsing building as it is all I know. It is what I know for the whole of my life.
Please pray for me as I make the leap of faith.
I am leaving the burning building and walking through the air towards Jesus.