I went to Remuda Ranch, and spent enough time there to quit using laxatives. I was anorexic, then bulimic, anorexic, bulimic, and eventually I was using drugs to cope with my eating disorder. Finally, years later, I prayed to Jesus, mostly because I realized I was only using drugs because of my eating disorder.
And, miraculously, my eating disorder was gone.
I ate fried chicken. Didn't care.
I ate fried chicken nearly everyday, and drank regular sodas without a second thought.
I didn't care about my size whatsoever.
Two years later, I'm learning to moderate. I developed a binge eating disorder in this past year because of 1)living in a house instead of the streets and 2)schizophrenia and 3)personal.
I drink a cup of water before meals and try to listen to God.
Want to know something super special and unbelievable?
I got fat, at one point. Yeah, FAT. And you know what? I was curvy. I was luscious. I wanted to gain more weight I looked so bombshell.
Now, I've gained too much weight, lol, but what's great about it is I'm not beating myself up, I'm not throwing my body to death, and this is all because of God.
Being "fat" isn't as uncomfortable as you'd think.
I spent practically my whole life trying to be thin, suffering to be thin, when I already was and I was just tripping because I thought I was supposed to be skinny and that I was ugly if I wasn't.
That's the devil, girls and boys.
Which is why when I'm tempted to go back to self-destructive eating disorder habits, I don't.
I can eat ranch dressing without hating myself.
I don't have to use drugs to suppress my appetite.
I can give myself to God, and I can be happy.
Pray to Jesus.
Don't suffer anymore.
Let him change your life.
Jesus Saves.
And, miraculously, my eating disorder was gone.
I ate fried chicken. Didn't care.
I ate fried chicken nearly everyday, and drank regular sodas without a second thought.
I didn't care about my size whatsoever.
Two years later, I'm learning to moderate. I developed a binge eating disorder in this past year because of 1)living in a house instead of the streets and 2)schizophrenia and 3)personal.
I drink a cup of water before meals and try to listen to God.
Want to know something super special and unbelievable?
I got fat, at one point. Yeah, FAT. And you know what? I was curvy. I was luscious. I wanted to gain more weight I looked so bombshell.
Now, I've gained too much weight, lol, but what's great about it is I'm not beating myself up, I'm not throwing my body to death, and this is all because of God.
Being "fat" isn't as uncomfortable as you'd think.
I spent practically my whole life trying to be thin, suffering to be thin, when I already was and I was just tripping because I thought I was supposed to be skinny and that I was ugly if I wasn't.
That's the devil, girls and boys.
Which is why when I'm tempted to go back to self-destructive eating disorder habits, I don't.
I can eat ranch dressing without hating myself.
I don't have to use drugs to suppress my appetite.
I can give myself to God, and I can be happy.
Pray to Jesus.
Don't suffer anymore.
Let him change your life.
Jesus Saves.