- Mar 8, 2017
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I get so upset with myself at times like this. I go months without self harming and then everything hits me like a ton of bricks. I end up relapsing. consistently relapse for weeks on end before managing to stop again. My normal coping mechanisms feel undoable because of my headspace. I often feel ashamed and despair when thinking of God in times like this. He'd be ashamed of my actions. I sometimes just feel like I don't know what to do. I do struggle with diagnosed depression and anxiety so it may just be something I always deal with when things get bad...I don't know anymore...