Need A Mature Christian to Help me

I had to find a new christian forum, due to the content of this thread. We (my fiance and I) tend to use the same forum, and welp this concerns him and I and I dont need to start something online with him. I'm already feeling like an idiot, I dont want anybody here to add to it, but if you possibly have some words of encouragement, this discouraged girl could really use it. If you feel lead to help me, please respond to this thread, and I'll share my situation with you. Does this forum have instant messaging? Or can you leave your email address and I'll contact you.
Thanks

August 8th 2003
Thank you to those who have responded to my post. I have found help, and am standing strong with the Lord. Thanks alot!!!