Hello,
My mother has never seemed fond of me. She tells me I am worthless, has tried to push me out of moving cars, lies to me, tells others I am a bad person, blames every problem in our household & life on me, and never seems content with what I do. Today our pet died and she told me that it is my fault. She tells me that my father left because he never wanted anything to do with me (even though I know he loves me and I still see him every other weekend) and gets very angry at me very quickly, often very unpredictably. I have been grounded for crying and am ridiculed by her when I try to share my feelings about our relationship. I get all A's in school, have won national academic competitions, have been given scholarships, awards, and I always try my best to make her proud, but I never seem to find the ability to please her. The past week, she has been nicer to me than she ever has been. I have prayed and thanked God for this blessing and for the first time bringing me feelings of love through my mother. I think I have been disciplined by Him, though, for sinning, and she is now back to the blame, hatred, and anger that I am used to experiencing. I am wondering if her usual attitude could be discipline from God to me? What would cause Him to bring this upon me and is there anything I can do to bring back His blessings? Why would He punish me by taking it away? My mom goes to church; is there anything other than prayer that I can do to help our relationship through the Lord? I am grateful for the past week but do not look forward to again suffering through my time with her. Any scriptures I can look to would also be appreciated. Thank you ahead of time.
My mother has never seemed fond of me. She tells me I am worthless, has tried to push me out of moving cars, lies to me, tells others I am a bad person, blames every problem in our household & life on me, and never seems content with what I do. Today our pet died and she told me that it is my fault. She tells me that my father left because he never wanted anything to do with me (even though I know he loves me and I still see him every other weekend) and gets very angry at me very quickly, often very unpredictably. I have been grounded for crying and am ridiculed by her when I try to share my feelings about our relationship. I get all A's in school, have won national academic competitions, have been given scholarships, awards, and I always try my best to make her proud, but I never seem to find the ability to please her. The past week, she has been nicer to me than she ever has been. I have prayed and thanked God for this blessing and for the first time bringing me feelings of love through my mother. I think I have been disciplined by Him, though, for sinning, and she is now back to the blame, hatred, and anger that I am used to experiencing. I am wondering if her usual attitude could be discipline from God to me? What would cause Him to bring this upon me and is there anything I can do to bring back His blessings? Why would He punish me by taking it away? My mom goes to church; is there anything other than prayer that I can do to help our relationship through the Lord? I am grateful for the past week but do not look forward to again suffering through my time with her. Any scriptures I can look to would also be appreciated. Thank you ahead of time.