hi everyone ive been a christian for about 7 years now and the Lord seemed to take away alot of my sin like drug and alcohol addiction, fornication, stealing, and mostly in the way i use to walk i walk no longer but ever since coming to faith ive struggled sexually with lust and masturbation at times. at times i would do well for some time but it doesnt seem like i can go on without sinning this way i would commit this sin and then repent and go on for however long i can resist. ive struggled alot at times and recently i lost the place i was living in previously. i went to stay with some christians who i became friends with when i first came to faith. they let me stay in the basement but i still happened to "play with myself" one night. i went to work with my friends mom that day and i overheard her faintly after grabbing a tool that my friend seen something and then he turned it off i faintly heard that which sounded like they had a hidden camera that caught me in the act and i felt like im looked at differently by them i was really ashamed i ended up leaving their place secretly i didnt really have a place to go after that but i had to get out of there because i was under the impression they knew what i did and now i feel like ive been gossiped about and the powers of darkness are at work heavily against me and it just feeels ive been exposed and i dont feel acceptedd or a part of Gods family and it feel like this happened because God is against me because of my sin and i have always been feeling like God is my enemy and wants nothing for me. my walk has been complicated but i just feel as the years pass as a christian the days grow worse i feel like im not on a good path and doesnt feel like ill get through this time in my life. i know to repent but i struggle with my sexual urges that id just like to be released from....