- Dec 13, 2015
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When I get angry I just snap without thinking. People laughing in my face and laughing at me with their friends or boyfriend is a trigger for me and unfortunately I feel like people laugh at me a lot and they point sometimes too.
I get extremely angry and very very close to going off on people in public. I did it at work one time, just snapped on co-workers. In highschool swung the metal pieces of a chair at someone's face. Punched a friend in the throat and stabbed a girl in the hand who was writing on my face with a pen.
I have a lot of rage at people and I don't tell this to counselors or regular people cause obviously this would freak them out, but I'm scared I'm going to get in a fight or do something worse to someone some day cause I get angry.
I bought a CBT book today for Anxiety and I may try to get an order line counselor and looking into possible CBD oil for depression/ anxiety as well.... Idk I've been living like this for a long time and haven't really done anything too crazy so maybe I worry too much.
But today my bf and I got in an argument and I went into the mall after and people were laughing around me with friends and I felt like I was being made fun of and I wanted to stop them and fight and punch the women I saw in the face. Girls that act like they are prettier or better than me are the main ones I want to beat up cause they are snotty.
Is it wrong to want to defend myself against people? Will CBT stop this rage and wanting to beat people up?
I get extremely angry and very very close to going off on people in public. I did it at work one time, just snapped on co-workers. In highschool swung the metal pieces of a chair at someone's face. Punched a friend in the throat and stabbed a girl in the hand who was writing on my face with a pen.
I have a lot of rage at people and I don't tell this to counselors or regular people cause obviously this would freak them out, but I'm scared I'm going to get in a fight or do something worse to someone some day cause I get angry.
I bought a CBT book today for Anxiety and I may try to get an order line counselor and looking into possible CBD oil for depression/ anxiety as well.... Idk I've been living like this for a long time and haven't really done anything too crazy so maybe I worry too much.
But today my bf and I got in an argument and I went into the mall after and people were laughing around me with friends and I felt like I was being made fun of and I wanted to stop them and fight and punch the women I saw in the face. Girls that act like they are prettier or better than me are the main ones I want to beat up cause they are snotty.
Is it wrong to want to defend myself against people? Will CBT stop this rage and wanting to beat people up?
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