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For me, the positive outcome of being a pk is that our family has miraculously had God's hedge of protection around us, from hurt, harm, or danger so far. Also, we were constantly in church services, around some truly good people, and were influenced by the fellowship, and hearing the word of God.
For me, the negative outcome of being a pk is that I was physically and emotionally abused by my father for 10 years, and my siblings and parents say I'm lying about the abuse. They are sacrificing me and my peace of mind of having the truth confessed, in order to protect the image of my parents, and enable them to keep their lies strong. The younger generations have unwittingly joined-in on this force against me, because they have been taught that I am lying about my parents, am a drama queen, and it's best to steer clear of me. This struggle has been on-going for over 30 years, since my father became a preacher in the mid-1970's.
The abuse I received from my father started in 1959, when I was six, and ended in 1969, when I was 16. It ended then after he fiercely beat me across my back with a belt, while yelling "Cry B----, cry!" and I was so angry at being beat for no reason, that I clinched my mouth shut tight, and took the blows, for the first time--refusing to cry. My mother and all of my siblings witnessed this, yet they deny that this, among many other incidents of dad's rage, ever happened. They say that I deserved every beating that I ever got.
From my life's experience, I learned that every one of us has the responsibility of accepting, loving, and getting to know Jesus, on our own. I also learned from observing so many preachers in their home lives, outside of the pulpit, that they are only human beings. They are not gods to be worshipped. All praise and worship goes to our Triune God. There are multitudes of wonderful spirit-filled preachers called of God, and there are some who are false prophets that we must be able to identify and steer clear of.
