Well Guus, I know how you feel;
then I read the psalms, it is a spiritual pilgrimage...life that is, I walk with God. Jesus said 'I am the way' walking the way. all these problems, stress, mountains to climb, is a pretty good description of the Christians progress ...a pilgrimage and we will grow in character, mind and heart. It is hard work sometimes.
Here is a good support along the way. One I am using this week;
psalm 40 verse 8
I desire to do your will, O my God,
your law is within my heart.
I learn the psalm number and verse first; (psalm 40 verse 8)
then the words.
I desire to do your will, O my God,
your law is within my heart.
and then I say it at different times during the day, when I think of it, quite a lot, until it sinks deep down into my soul.
psalm 40 has helped me this week. My best friend is having chemotherapy, we are praying for a miracle as the cancer has spread all over and without a miracle she may die.
Oh dear, now about that hot black coffee and a large plate of doughnuts...
and we will thank the Lord because he knows and cares for us so much.