[Disclaimer On]this is going to be a long post because i want to fully explain why i'm asking the questions and hopefully anyone that is gracious enough to respond reads it all before responding. this seems to be the fitting forum for this.
my intentions here are not to demean the faith, or believers or any perception of a god that you all have, or iow, my intentions are not to blaspheme and my intentions are not to bait or flame anyone.
i'm atheist and was a Christian from the age of 12 till well officially this year, but the deconversion process began 4 years ago. the way i'm explaining my question is all based upon what i see as hypotheticals and the perceptions that i see with the Bible and with the definitions of God that have been historically known as the popular way of defining attributes of God. i am secular and atheist, so i hold no personal convictions with views that may be shared. i'm using hypotheticals here in order to explain my "exploring of the Christian faith with Christians".
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i'm confused with how the Bible leads us to repentance or anything. yes, i do believe there are things in the Bible, as all other religious books that lead us to inspiration to change our actions and such but as to an actual real, life changing working wonder, i don't see how.
so i was wanting to know how the Christians view repentance, what it is is, salvation and such.
the reason why i'm asking is this.
looking back through the Bible, it seems one could theorize that we see God repenting for what He created. i say this because:
1. Adam and Eve were created by a being who is perfect, thus it is good, or a perfect creation. if they were perfect, there would be no reason to have a tree in the garden of eden, to where they had to make a choice. perfection doesn't have the ability to make a choice. it just is. so if a God, all-knowing, all-powerful created these beings, why would God also plant the tree in the garden? one could take it further and ask, well why did God create Lucifer if God already knew the Lucifer would rebel against Him? that's not the point for this discussion.
2. we see constantly in the Bible that the people of God, and God interveneing. it would seem to most that we see God trying to offer humanity time and time the ability to repent and change from that very action that caused all the problems. we read how the Jewish people offered sacrifices unto the Lord, we see the passion on the cross, the final sacrifice made, and then even with the 2nd coming of Christ and all that entails and promises, from what i see, a complete destruction of the former, and a birth of renewal, or maybe one could argue, the way it was intended to be.
now i'm not meaning to be demeaning here, but this perception from reading the Bible seems tremendously flawed. we were a being created for the pleasurement of a god. we had no choice in our being created. sure we have choices to make after creation but that stain if you will will still be on us. so if one would believe that there is a flaw to our character at human nature which would have to start at birth, who would be the one to blame...God or the human being? now i believe that people are the ones to blame for their problems and mistakes most of the time, but with the idea of repentance in accordance to God because we are a sinful being, this is where i start coming to a different conclusion. i didn't make myself. i came into existence with this supposed problem if you will. so if we are to believe that there is a creator, wouldn't the responsibility for the stain being on our character and human nature as many believers be, be on the head of the Almighty?
so with all this said, this idea of eternal repentance to be accepted to God, seems a bit nonsensical. it makes sense why people still sin after believeing. you can't fix a problem that you didn't create and what we see in the Bible as the means that God has offered hasn't done anything as to absolve the problem entirely. the people of the Bible, still "sinned" reluctantly while God gave them many ways to cleanse themselves. it seems like free-will is God's wild card to cover Himself if you will. i gave you free-will, so its your fault.
so to finally end this long post, which again i apologize, how do you as a Christian repent? i can say, as an atheist, if repentance is merely along the ideas of changing ways we live, then i technically "repent" all the time, because i want to better myself constantly and to be as moral as i can be. but with the idea of repentance, to sin no more with each day we're alive, and in relation to a relationship with God. and what are the affects that you as a believer feel is happening to you as you repent? whether it be physical feelings, emotional feelings, or spiritual stuff, feel free to respond with whatever you can answer with.
my intentions here are not to demean the faith, or believers or any perception of a god that you all have, or iow, my intentions are not to blaspheme and my intentions are not to bait or flame anyone.
i'm atheist and was a Christian from the age of 12 till well officially this year, but the deconversion process began 4 years ago. the way i'm explaining my question is all based upon what i see as hypotheticals and the perceptions that i see with the Bible and with the definitions of God that have been historically known as the popular way of defining attributes of God. i am secular and atheist, so i hold no personal convictions with views that may be shared. i'm using hypotheticals here in order to explain my "exploring of the Christian faith with Christians".
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i'm confused with how the Bible leads us to repentance or anything. yes, i do believe there are things in the Bible, as all other religious books that lead us to inspiration to change our actions and such but as to an actual real, life changing working wonder, i don't see how.
so i was wanting to know how the Christians view repentance, what it is is, salvation and such.
the reason why i'm asking is this.
looking back through the Bible, it seems one could theorize that we see God repenting for what He created. i say this because:
1. Adam and Eve were created by a being who is perfect, thus it is good, or a perfect creation. if they were perfect, there would be no reason to have a tree in the garden of eden, to where they had to make a choice. perfection doesn't have the ability to make a choice. it just is. so if a God, all-knowing, all-powerful created these beings, why would God also plant the tree in the garden? one could take it further and ask, well why did God create Lucifer if God already knew the Lucifer would rebel against Him? that's not the point for this discussion.
2. we see constantly in the Bible that the people of God, and God interveneing. it would seem to most that we see God trying to offer humanity time and time the ability to repent and change from that very action that caused all the problems. we read how the Jewish people offered sacrifices unto the Lord, we see the passion on the cross, the final sacrifice made, and then even with the 2nd coming of Christ and all that entails and promises, from what i see, a complete destruction of the former, and a birth of renewal, or maybe one could argue, the way it was intended to be.
now i'm not meaning to be demeaning here, but this perception from reading the Bible seems tremendously flawed. we were a being created for the pleasurement of a god. we had no choice in our being created. sure we have choices to make after creation but that stain if you will will still be on us. so if one would believe that there is a flaw to our character at human nature which would have to start at birth, who would be the one to blame...God or the human being? now i believe that people are the ones to blame for their problems and mistakes most of the time, but with the idea of repentance in accordance to God because we are a sinful being, this is where i start coming to a different conclusion. i didn't make myself. i came into existence with this supposed problem if you will. so if we are to believe that there is a creator, wouldn't the responsibility for the stain being on our character and human nature as many believers be, be on the head of the Almighty?
so with all this said, this idea of eternal repentance to be accepted to God, seems a bit nonsensical. it makes sense why people still sin after believeing. you can't fix a problem that you didn't create and what we see in the Bible as the means that God has offered hasn't done anything as to absolve the problem entirely. the people of the Bible, still "sinned" reluctantly while God gave them many ways to cleanse themselves. it seems like free-will is God's wild card to cover Himself if you will. i gave you free-will, so its your fault.
so to finally end this long post, which again i apologize, how do you as a Christian repent? i can say, as an atheist, if repentance is merely along the ideas of changing ways we live, then i technically "repent" all the time, because i want to better myself constantly and to be as moral as i can be. but with the idea of repentance, to sin no more with each day we're alive, and in relation to a relationship with God. and what are the affects that you as a believer feel is happening to you as you repent? whether it be physical feelings, emotional feelings, or spiritual stuff, feel free to respond with whatever you can answer with.