- May 26, 2018
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Feel like I might be suffering from the aftermath of a narcissist relationship, because I am the victim of a narcissist, I dated and lived with a women for two years we shared an apartment together. Just to be brief I had no freedom in the relationship to do anything we were both unemployed but collecting money. But I was almost never allowed to leave the house unless she got to be with me, and if she did let me out it was like I had a curfew with her and if I wasn't back on her time she would come looking for me. She would make me feel bad for stuff I shouldn't feel bad, no free space or anything, had to know what I was doing on my phone at ball times she had to see everything I was doing on my phone. I was not even allowed to talk on the phone in a different room let alone be in a different, or even sit on a different piece of furniture, I had to be close to her at all times. She would accuse of doing things to her I never did an make me seem like I was a bad person. She would lie to me. And the worst part about it was that she thought I would never catch on to her after living with her for two years. She even went thru my phone and tried to delete my best friend off of Facebook when I was reaching out to my friend and telling him that she is controlling. She would want my attention 24/7 days a week. If I played my games for a few hours and she got bored it was my fault that she had nothing to do and etc and I pretty sure you can see the list can go on with someone like that, and these were daily thing I put up with for two years. But why I state this is because I left her the last two weeks of February and stop talking to her on March 1st for good. But it is now May I just woke up from a dream of her framing me for something I didn't do, and I woke up upset about it. But I have been fine for a month so I am not sure why I had this dream. The only thing I can think of is that sometimes I wish I had a women in my life again. I was reading online that narcissism is pychological abuse, so not only is that the problem but I also have to deal with the break up and the reality that the relationship I was in was a fake relationship and you can have ptsd from it. But I already have PTSD from 17 years ago when my mom passed away when I was 9 years old in a tragic fire accident, I'm a 27 year old male and still struggle with that. I definitely had trouble with being alone the first month an a half but I'm doing a lot better now.
