I begged God not to let me get pregnant again if I was going to miscarry (again). I did get pregnant and God's answer was no. I lost my son Simon last week. My 3rd second trimester loss in a row. I have had 2 live births then 3 late losses.
We've prayed, and prayed and prayed and had many many many others praying with us too.
I don't think I can keep going like this. We've done (or are in the process of doing) every test that 3 different doctors could think of and nothing is wrong with me/us (although we're waiting on further test results it's unlikely they will yield any answers). But with 3 babies dying something is clearly wrong!
This losses has truly pushed my trust in God to the breaking point. I can't keep burying my children. I can't keep putting my oldest son through the pain of losing his siblings.
If you've never lost a child then you thankfully have no idea just how unbelievably devastating this is and losing more than one has been indescribably. The unhelpful words of "you can have more" ring untrue and also hurtful because My children, Zach, Toby and Simon are dead and I mourn them.
We want more children. I long for more children, but it kills a part of my heart that I won't get back each time one of them dies.
Any words of wisdom or thoughts or scripture would be very much appreciated.
We've prayed, and prayed and prayed and had many many many others praying with us too.
I don't think I can keep going like this. We've done (or are in the process of doing) every test that 3 different doctors could think of and nothing is wrong with me/us (although we're waiting on further test results it's unlikely they will yield any answers). But with 3 babies dying something is clearly wrong!
This losses has truly pushed my trust in God to the breaking point. I can't keep burying my children. I can't keep putting my oldest son through the pain of losing his siblings.
If you've never lost a child then you thankfully have no idea just how unbelievably devastating this is and losing more than one has been indescribably. The unhelpful words of "you can have more" ring untrue and also hurtful because My children, Zach, Toby and Simon are dead and I mourn them.
We want more children. I long for more children, but it kills a part of my heart that I won't get back each time one of them dies.
Any words of wisdom or thoughts or scripture would be very much appreciated.