Sorry, if this goes against the rules. I just don't know who to talk about this. I don't understand. I'm absolutely shocked right now. I prayed my Grandma wouldn't succumb to the fight against Covid 19. How come she still died??? Many people were praying that she would survive. I don't understand? Why didn't God answer our prayers? She didn't die naturally, she died from a horrible disease. I'm really starting to question my faith.
I am truly sorry that you are experiencing the grief of the loss of your grandmother at this time.
I am 62 years old at this time. In my lifetime, I have lost both parents, 3 grandparents, friends, colleagues, etc. My father died in 2020, my mother in 2016, and my mother-in-law in 2015.
I think that part of the answer to your question ... is that we are not destined by God to remain in this world (as it is) together. We pass
through this life, ... which means that, at some point, we have to leave ... and we have to experience our loved ones leaving.
I have come to an acceptance of this ... basically, because of LOVE. It would not be loving to leave us and our loved ones in this world forever. There is too much evil here ... God has said that it is not good to leave people in this world for too long.
As my loved ones passed on, I learned to cherish the loving times I had spent with them ... that I loved ... and was loved by them. That will never go away. Love will always persist. Love ... is the reason that our hearts grieve when our loved ones pass on.
It is our assignment ... to love ... and to be loved ... while we are in this world. We are called to show the love of God to our loved-ones ... and to our neighbors.
God tells us to pray to Him for what we want. But God will not do what is not good ... just because we ask for it. God loves our loved ones too ... and He knows that it is good for them, at some point, to come home to be with Him.
God witnessed His own Son dying on a cross. Of course, He knew, that at some point in the future, they would be reunited.
Fortunately, God has also promised that we will see our loved-ones again, and our lives there will be even better than it is now.
So ... grieve for your loved-ones, but also look forward to seeing them again. And continue to show God's love in the world ... as even God does Himself.