I was saved from a drink and drug fueled party lifestyle and woken up just before I hit rock bottom, I really struggled to see any point in life before I was saved, having grown up with evolution as the answer to life just gave me the ticket to think, well am here so am gonna enjoy it, not that I ever did anything bad, parents taught me well, whats right and whats wrong, and always believed and held to that, just from the moral perspective, but I couldnt get the idea out of my head that the world somehow seemed wrong, full of lies, and so much pain, that was kind of my foundations for beleiving that we were in a world without a good God, although deep down I couldnt let go of the idea of their not being a God.
Well it was when I realised that yes we are living in a world full of lies and pain, but its not down to there being no God, but rather due to the fact that God being all Good does not partake in anything which is evil, and that he cannot for its in direct opposition to his nature, and from this I started to see the distinction between Good (God) and evil (devil) and that they are in opostion to each other therefore it is of the devil that evil exists but only exists in man because God gave us the freedom to choose so we can willingly choose him, but has to be a decision on our part, and after coming to an understanding of the work of his Son, made perfect sense and quiet litterally blew me away when I really started to understand salvation.
A lot has changed since I became saved, the biggest thing I didnt realise would happen in my life is what Ive come to understand as the mirror of God, in the light of God we can see the true reflection of ourselves, not who we think we are, but who we truly are, this was difficult for me cus there was me thinking I was all that and not that far from God, then coming to realise that I was a billion miles away from him in terms of what my ego perception of self was compared to the Godly reflection of self, and coming to understand the thinking of heart compared to the thinking of brain, that there is a difference, through self evaluation I realised there was a ton of what God calls unhealthy trees, and thorny bushes in my soul, things I never realised were a problem like hatred, unforgivesness and anger, but found a place of rest in my soul also because God is also called the gardener, so I know he knows how to fix things, I know now I am nowhere near as perfect as I thought, but Ive learned to trust in God in my life now, and let him do his work, yeah sometimes we wrestle, sometimes I run away, sometimes I hide and pretent he is not there, but always keep ariving back to the same place in life that he is in control and is working through me and once this is complete then I will be as first stated in the bible, made in his image, for his glory.