I need help from a christian perspective. I've only been christian for about 5 months. My husband is going to school to be a minister. I have been in psych treatment since I was 17, now i'm 25. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder by my psychiatrist and bipolar disorder II by my psychologist. i no longer go to see any doctors and am only taking zoloft now because i can't get off of it without side effects. A couple of weeks ago i overdosed on my left over depakote. I was not hospitalized and just recovered by myself. I also ended up hitting my husband and actually hurting myself not him. I also started smoking again.
Anyways the dilema i have is...my husband thinks it's unnecessary for me to take my bipolar meds because they make me numb...therefore not allowing me to learn about life. He thinks it's a big let down if i start them again.
My moods are swinging, I'm extremely sensitive currently. I have big breakthroughs in letting the holy spirit help me. I can be content and unproblematic for a couple weeks at a time.
but i'm wondering if i'm going to get sidetracked again and end up trying to kill myself for the 4th time or so.....please advise me. i need another christian perspective. is this just life? thanks......
Anyways the dilema i have is...my husband thinks it's unnecessary for me to take my bipolar meds because they make me numb...therefore not allowing me to learn about life. He thinks it's a big let down if i start them again.
My moods are swinging, I'm extremely sensitive currently. I have big breakthroughs in letting the holy spirit help me. I can be content and unproblematic for a couple weeks at a time.
but i'm wondering if i'm going to get sidetracked again and end up trying to kill myself for the 4th time or so.....please advise me. i need another christian perspective. is this just life? thanks......