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“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows.” (Psalms 23:5 NASB’95)
So, I asked the Lord what he would have for me to write about this passage of Scripture today, and he is leading me to share some of my testimony.
Although I was brought up in a Christian church from birth, and my father professed faith in Jesus Christ, he was an abuser of the worst kinds. I feared him greatly and all his abuses. I cried myself to sleep many nights, but I believed in Jesus, and so I prayed to the Lord to give me help and strength, and I prayed for his guidance and direction. And I loved my church, and I loved learning from the Scriptures, and I loved God and his salvation.
I was very involved in child evangelism and with my youth group at church, and I began teaching the Scriptures to children at the age of 16. And in Jr High and High School I was very active with Youth For Christ, and I was president of our YFC club in my high school my Junior year. I formed most of my close friendships from church and from YFC. And I was a singer, and I sang solos, and in duets, trios, quartets and the church choir. I loved Jesus!
In college I joined Intervarsity Christian fellowship, and I was involved with my college group at church, and I majored in music education, and so I continued in my singing. That is where I met my husband, and we have now been married 52 years. And we got involved in Christian ministry together in singing, in teaching the Scriptures, in working with youth, and evangelism. In 1999 the Lord called us to begin a college age group Bible study in our home, and that is what we did weekly for 7.5 years, ending in 2006.
In 2004 the Lord Jesus called me to this present ministry of writing down what he is teaching me from his word each day and posting these writings on the internet, and I have been doing that ever since then. Then he added on song writing, then poetry, then video talk devotions, and then memes. He also had me write two books of testimony of my life experiences. The second book is about abuses that I faced in Christian ministry in institutional churches, mostly coming from the pastors of those churches.
I was rejected and cast aside much because of my love for Jesus and my desire for him and my hunger and thirst after righteousness and for my passion for serving him with my life, and because I stood on the Word of Christ, taught in context, and I did not compromise truth or righteousness in order to “fit in.” Since so many of today’s modern “churches” here in America are now businesses being marketed to the people of the world, and many of them are diluting the truth of the gospel, I became one to be discarded.
And so the Lord eventually convinced me that the institutional market-driven “churches” of today are businesses which are compromising with the world and that I was to come out of them, and so I did. Now, as a follower of Christ I am part of the body of Christ, the universal church, so I have not left the church. I have left man-made businesses called “church” but which are not the church operating under the authority of Christ. I am still daily engaged with the church, the body of Christ, but now on the internet.
So, the rejection that I received in these institutional market-driven churches was the catalyst for the Lord then calling me to be a missionary on the internet. And this is not anything I would have chosen for myself, and it was not anything that I would have ever dreamed of. What the Lord did is he took a woman rejected by men, he put me on the internet, and he has been using me there for 21 years to spread the truth of the Scriptures to the people of the world in multiple nations, at least 131 countries I know of.
So, where so many pastors discarded me because of my stand on truth and righteousness, and because I would not compromise truth, and I would not lie, but because I was a person of integrity and honesty whose life was committed to serving the Lord Jesus and to sharing the truth of the gospel, the Lord Jesus prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies, and he anointed me for his service, and my cup overflows with his grace and mercy and with all that he has been having me share these past 21 years.
And all the glory and all the praise goes to God and not to me. I am just his messenger, writing down what he is teaching me each day, and posting these writings on the internet, out of obedience to him, in my love service to him as my only Lord. I would not have and I could not do what he is having me do of my own accord or in my own strength and wisdom. Only in the power of God, by his mercy and grace, am I able to do what I do each day. And I thank the Lord every day for this opportunity to serve him in this way.
A Believer’s Prayer
An Original Work / July 31, 2012
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
With my whole heart, Lord, I pray
To be Yours, and Yours always.
Lead me in Your truth today.
May I love You, and obey.
Lead me in Your righteousness.
When I sin, may I confess;
Bow before You when I pray;
Live for You and You always.
Love You, Jesus, You’re my friend.
Life with You will never end.
You are with me through each day,
Giving love and peace always.
You will ne’er abandon me.
From my sin You set me free.
You died on that cruel tree,
So I’d live eternally.
Soon You’re coming back for me;
From this world to set me free;
Live with You eternally.
Oh, what joy that brings to me.
I will walk with You in white;
A pure bride, I’ve been made right
By the blood of Jesus Christ;
Pardoned by His sacrifice.
You Prepare a Table Before Me
An Original Work / March 17, 2025
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
The Church Under Fire (edited)
The Church Under Fire Book (edited).pdf
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