The last time was my first and only bout of optic neuritis but it was detected in an MRI. I had no symptoms.
MS is a disease that you die with, not die from
I have had it for 43 yrs. It has drastically affected my life, but not in any way that people can see.
The struggle, like the spiritual battle is internal.
I can have the disease to thank for sending me to medical school. In the early years I was told that there was nothing wrong with me and my symptoms made no sense. I was treated like a hypochondriac
Ironically it was in medical school that the disease fully manifested itself and there was no denying it any longer. Part of me was hurt that I was treated like a hypochondriac but the other part would feel they will never find anything, there is nothing wrong with me.
It was a very stance feeling when I got the results of my MRI and could see that Indefinitely had the disease. I could understand how people feel when they get a bad diagnosis. Time stops and you can’t really understand much of what the doctor is saying after you first hear the news
Shortly after the definitive diagnosis, I went legally blind for about a week or two. My eyes would look in two different directions and I could not move them unless I covered one eye.
This was the 1990s and treatment was still in its early stages. I started beta interferon which stopped the attacks and allowed me to retain normal sight, but I went through a massive depression which is listed as one of the side effects of the drug.
The things I did to deal with it were stupid and I wonder if it was just drug induced mental illness or a demonic obsession
Any way sorry don’t want to bore with details or derail this thread. MRIs can be scarry and MS is a bad disease, but what can be interpreted as evil, God can use for good. The answers to my prayers have come from dealing with this disease
When I pray the contemplative rosary, I get to the request after the mystery of the Nativity, pray Mary that we may detach our hearts from material things and esteem of the world. I look back a just say thank you God. I would not have known the depths of God’s mercy and love if not for the journey I have taken
Divine Mercy Sunday is in a couple of weeks. God’s love waits for you no matter your circumstances. You are alive right now. All is not lost, though Satan likes to get people to think that they are beyond hope. Just ask God for His mercy and He gives it freely. You just have to ask
The catechism teaches that there is not one soul for whom Christ did not suffer and die
Peace be with you all