- Mar 28, 2018
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Hey everyone.
I write this as someone who is, as the title of this post proclaims, at rock bottom and completely beaten down. I have messed up my life completely. I was brought up Christian and have always believed however I was baptised by full water immersion about a decade or so ago and for whatever reason, I still went completely off the rails and ended up in some very dark places indeed. The occult, Paganism, New Age. I became addicted to pornography and although my tastes were legal they have still weakened me. I feel dirty to be perfectly honest. Last night, I used erotic imagery to get myself off and I hope it's for the last time. I got down on my knees and repented. I asked God to forgive me for my sins and I handed my life and my will over to His care. Immediately I felt a light enter me and today I cried. I almost gave in to sexual temptation today but I prayed to God and asked Him to help heal me. I felt the load instantly get lighter. I am done trying to do things my way. They never work. I am beaten and I know it. It's good to be here.
Matthew 7.7
I write this as someone who is, as the title of this post proclaims, at rock bottom and completely beaten down. I have messed up my life completely. I was brought up Christian and have always believed however I was baptised by full water immersion about a decade or so ago and for whatever reason, I still went completely off the rails and ended up in some very dark places indeed. The occult, Paganism, New Age. I became addicted to pornography and although my tastes were legal they have still weakened me. I feel dirty to be perfectly honest. Last night, I used erotic imagery to get myself off and I hope it's for the last time. I got down on my knees and repented. I asked God to forgive me for my sins and I handed my life and my will over to His care. Immediately I felt a light enter me and today I cried. I almost gave in to sexual temptation today but I prayed to God and asked Him to help heal me. I felt the load instantly get lighter. I am done trying to do things my way. They never work. I am beaten and I know it. It's good to be here.
Matthew 7.7
