Why do other humans not love me?
If you are blessed enough to receive God's answers to you, would you be so kind as to please ask him why I am so unlucky with other humans and how I can break my curses?
I remember a prophet lady one time said that my whole family has the curse of infirmity...How do I break it? I know I have unusual bad luck and I've had it ever since I became a teenager and that everyday became harder to face my life emotionally and mentally. I do not have any physical debilitation since I'm healthy but this spirit of infirmity is literally keeping my body from doing the things I want to accomplish in life. It's my spirit that I feel is and has been imprisoned which has kept my physical self from living my life to the fullest.
Why do I have this? What did I do to deserve this and what can I do to break it forever?
My mom and my brother are like this but even though we all are Christians, nothing is working and nothing is helping. Does God not want to rid me of whatever is disabling my mind?
My family probably wont change anytime soon, but I want to at least start with myself first.
I want to so badly be successful and prosperous in life. No matter how much I want it I feel like I can't reach my goal no matter what. In fact, that means ANY TYPE OF GOAL. This curse literally disables me from accomplishing anything in life. I am so depressed and I don't know what to do. I just need your help.
Another problem I have is that I seriously have such bad luck with other people. My bad luck cannot be a coincidence anymore and I believe that I am cursed. If I am, I KNOW that there is NOTHING God CAN'T do. But why isn't he using his powers over me to heal and bless me?
I LOVE people and I so wish that people would love me too. But I have a strange bad luck with them because I always end up somehow offending them without meaning to, intimidating them without realizing that I am, or angering them...It saddens me a lot because now I've turned into a hermit that wants nothing to do with anybody anymore even though I secretly crave relationships and I'm learning how to cope by learning how to hate everybody myself BECAUSE I feel like people hate ME so why shouldn't I hate them??? Because of the pain I've endured, I am actually teaching myself how to be okay with hating people and being selfish...
I KNOW God doesn't want this and it's certainly not what my spirit wants but I feel like I was subconsciously conditioned into becoming this way and that someone else is pulling the strings on MY LIFE. This is oddly becoming the same exact pattern every single day and I'm having a really difficult time with life.
God gave me one true best friend, and I remember the day I cried and begged for a friend. He became my boyfriend. I have no one else besides him right now. But I want to be able to stand on my own two feet and I want to become INDEPENDENT.
I want to be free! I am not free! This isn't a normal way of living. This is becoming a pattern in life and it's not normal. I'm CURSED, LORD, I am actually cursed and I wish it wasn't so and sometimes I tell myself that this is all BS but I can't lie to myself anymore since It's ruining my entire life. I am a PRISONER OF MY OWN LIFE. I am a SLAVE.
If you are blessed enough to receive God's answers to you, would you be so kind as to please ask him why I am so unlucky with other humans and how I can break my curses?
I remember a prophet lady one time said that my whole family has the curse of infirmity...How do I break it? I know I have unusual bad luck and I've had it ever since I became a teenager and that everyday became harder to face my life emotionally and mentally. I do not have any physical debilitation since I'm healthy but this spirit of infirmity is literally keeping my body from doing the things I want to accomplish in life. It's my spirit that I feel is and has been imprisoned which has kept my physical self from living my life to the fullest.
Why do I have this? What did I do to deserve this and what can I do to break it forever?
My mom and my brother are like this but even though we all are Christians, nothing is working and nothing is helping. Does God not want to rid me of whatever is disabling my mind?
My family probably wont change anytime soon, but I want to at least start with myself first.
I want to so badly be successful and prosperous in life. No matter how much I want it I feel like I can't reach my goal no matter what. In fact, that means ANY TYPE OF GOAL. This curse literally disables me from accomplishing anything in life. I am so depressed and I don't know what to do. I just need your help.
Another problem I have is that I seriously have such bad luck with other people. My bad luck cannot be a coincidence anymore and I believe that I am cursed. If I am, I KNOW that there is NOTHING God CAN'T do. But why isn't he using his powers over me to heal and bless me?
I LOVE people and I so wish that people would love me too. But I have a strange bad luck with them because I always end up somehow offending them without meaning to, intimidating them without realizing that I am, or angering them...It saddens me a lot because now I've turned into a hermit that wants nothing to do with anybody anymore even though I secretly crave relationships and I'm learning how to cope by learning how to hate everybody myself BECAUSE I feel like people hate ME so why shouldn't I hate them??? Because of the pain I've endured, I am actually teaching myself how to be okay with hating people and being selfish...
I KNOW God doesn't want this and it's certainly not what my spirit wants but I feel like I was subconsciously conditioned into becoming this way and that someone else is pulling the strings on MY LIFE. This is oddly becoming the same exact pattern every single day and I'm having a really difficult time with life.
God gave me one true best friend, and I remember the day I cried and begged for a friend. He became my boyfriend. I have no one else besides him right now. But I want to be able to stand on my own two feet and I want to become INDEPENDENT.
I want to be free! I am not free! This isn't a normal way of living. This is becoming a pattern in life and it's not normal. I'm CURSED, LORD, I am actually cursed and I wish it wasn't so and sometimes I tell myself that this is all BS but I can't lie to myself anymore since It's ruining my entire life. I am a PRISONER OF MY OWN LIFE. I am a SLAVE.
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