- Oct 8, 2018
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Hi all,
I posted earlier on the general theology page about what all I am concerned about but maybe this is a better place to post and leave out a lot of details from that post and try to shorten this post (it’s still gonna be long tho) anyway
So will the Holy Spirit leave you cause you didn’t do something he asked I say this cause I felt this happen to me and heard
I will withdraw myself from you until you do this
And what that this was was sell your things which I thought I heard the day before at about the same time
I was sure I heard it from God cause it was different like more than just a thought if that makes any sense
Anyway I went away thinking we’ll I’ll pray about this more and see how this goes next day I thought I heard I will withdrawal myself from you until you do this
and worst part was I felt it very much real like someone standing on my heart and it affected me greatly to say the least since then I have been digging into meanings of scripture and just about every type of Christian debate on the internet
I also started trying to repent of sin before this happened to me
cause of stories of people going to hell and coming back on YouTube it did scare me quite a bit
It’s been almost a year now since I thought the Holy Spirit withdrawed from me
The things He told me to sell wasn’t exactly everything just the things I valued the most I thought, which I had recently purchased after starting my new job
I sold them but I feel a little worse now cause I feel like I didn’t exactly do it right
Cause I bought an expensive gift for a family member after I sold them which was the same type of thing I was told to sell and now I feel just as bad or worse than before
And these things are just things (not gonna get into what all they were because it could start an entirely different debate I don’t won’t to get into, but unless someone really wants to know I will tell them but gonna leave most of them out for now) anyway but I thought I really needed them for example one was a guitar and amp I actually used it at church a few Sundays out of the year
(and I really thought I did need to replace my old one)
But I couldn’t bare the thoughts when I was playing it so it’s gone
The other things I used in everyday life from time to time and relied on them to a certain extent
So basically I’m asking did the Holy Spirit leave simply because I didn’t obey
I thought why would he ask me to do something then leave me?
Also did He leave me cause I’m an idolater
Basically this means I can’t have any hobbies or anything to enjoy ever?
I get mad about this cause some preachers on the internet ( especially YouTube) seem to teach this sorta thing but I don’t think they’ve truly given up all for God
But again I shouldn’t judge I don’t really know them so I apologize for that
See how easy this becomes a theology debate
Anyway I didn’t think my things were in between God and I but maybe I was wrong maybe I was loving them too much
And not following the first commandment which I know I don’t always do
Or loving God with all my heart,soul,mind and strength
and I don’t see how anybody else does both these all the time (again I apologize I’m not trying to judge really but I thought we were all the same low sinners)
So anyway is that what it takes to get to Heaven or have the Holy Spirit
To at least be trying our hardest to follow and do these and follow the 10 commandments and the commandments of Jesus ?
Which I think are the 10 commandments in true form
Also if this is the case what about people with kids or something they might at anytime love more than God?
I don’t know I’m kinda scared to post anything cause I don’t want to confuse a fellow Christian to get confused or stumble
Therefore I have deleted post threads before that I started
Anyway I really feel
I’m an idolater and I’m too scared to really enjoy anything cause I might love it too much
Sorry I know material things mean nothing and we can’t take them with us when we go
I’m just looking for some hope, joy, and peace
I have been praying but I feel like God has left me and is not listening but I kinda know he is
I just don’t know what I should do I’m trying not to love those things I sold but I still do I admit and I’m trying not to buy anything like them again even tho I really want to
Also I have talked with my pastor about this he’s new to our church but he was helpful and I’ve spoke to other people (Christians)but I haven’t said anything recently to anybody cause I get the feeling they think I’m crazy and yes maybe I am
Thanks for reading
I posted earlier on the general theology page about what all I am concerned about but maybe this is a better place to post and leave out a lot of details from that post and try to shorten this post (it’s still gonna be long tho) anyway
So will the Holy Spirit leave you cause you didn’t do something he asked I say this cause I felt this happen to me and heard
I will withdraw myself from you until you do this
And what that this was was sell your things which I thought I heard the day before at about the same time
I was sure I heard it from God cause it was different like more than just a thought if that makes any sense
Anyway I went away thinking we’ll I’ll pray about this more and see how this goes next day I thought I heard I will withdrawal myself from you until you do this
and worst part was I felt it very much real like someone standing on my heart and it affected me greatly to say the least since then I have been digging into meanings of scripture and just about every type of Christian debate on the internet
I also started trying to repent of sin before this happened to me
cause of stories of people going to hell and coming back on YouTube it did scare me quite a bit
It’s been almost a year now since I thought the Holy Spirit withdrawed from me
The things He told me to sell wasn’t exactly everything just the things I valued the most I thought, which I had recently purchased after starting my new job
I sold them but I feel a little worse now cause I feel like I didn’t exactly do it right
Cause I bought an expensive gift for a family member after I sold them which was the same type of thing I was told to sell and now I feel just as bad or worse than before
And these things are just things (not gonna get into what all they were because it could start an entirely different debate I don’t won’t to get into, but unless someone really wants to know I will tell them but gonna leave most of them out for now) anyway but I thought I really needed them for example one was a guitar and amp I actually used it at church a few Sundays out of the year
(and I really thought I did need to replace my old one)
But I couldn’t bare the thoughts when I was playing it so it’s gone
The other things I used in everyday life from time to time and relied on them to a certain extent
So basically I’m asking did the Holy Spirit leave simply because I didn’t obey
I thought why would he ask me to do something then leave me?
Also did He leave me cause I’m an idolater
Basically this means I can’t have any hobbies or anything to enjoy ever?
I get mad about this cause some preachers on the internet ( especially YouTube) seem to teach this sorta thing but I don’t think they’ve truly given up all for God
But again I shouldn’t judge I don’t really know them so I apologize for that
See how easy this becomes a theology debate
Anyway I didn’t think my things were in between God and I but maybe I was wrong maybe I was loving them too much
And not following the first commandment which I know I don’t always do
Or loving God with all my heart,soul,mind and strength
and I don’t see how anybody else does both these all the time (again I apologize I’m not trying to judge really but I thought we were all the same low sinners)
So anyway is that what it takes to get to Heaven or have the Holy Spirit
To at least be trying our hardest to follow and do these and follow the 10 commandments and the commandments of Jesus ?
Which I think are the 10 commandments in true form
Also if this is the case what about people with kids or something they might at anytime love more than God?
I don’t know I’m kinda scared to post anything cause I don’t want to confuse a fellow Christian to get confused or stumble
Therefore I have deleted post threads before that I started
Anyway I really feel
I’m an idolater and I’m too scared to really enjoy anything cause I might love it too much
Sorry I know material things mean nothing and we can’t take them with us when we go
I’m just looking for some hope, joy, and peace
I have been praying but I feel like God has left me and is not listening but I kinda know he is
I just don’t know what I should do I’m trying not to love those things I sold but I still do I admit and I’m trying not to buy anything like them again even tho I really want to
Also I have talked with my pastor about this he’s new to our church but he was helpful and I’ve spoke to other people (Christians)but I haven’t said anything recently to anybody cause I get the feeling they think I’m crazy and yes maybe I am
Thanks for reading