Right now I feel an unbelievable amount of guilt and conviction. I know this same topic has been addressed multiple times here but let me bring up a few points.
I am not questioning these thing in that I believe them to be wrong. i believe everything in the scripture as fact, I just don't understand it.
-Jesus said that if you speak out against the Holy Spirit you will not be forgiven. Then why does the scripture repeatedly say that Jesus forgives ALL sin and that his love for us is infinite and eternal?
-I have heard it explained that you can commit the act without knowing it. And that it does indeed put you in line for hell, and that no amount of repentance will change it. Is this true? he used the example of Esau, telling about how he searched for God's forgiveness but found no place of repentance.
-Many say that blasphemy is the act of dying in an unpardonable state. Well, this part of the scripture is not dealing with death - it seems that it is dealing with a verbal sin.
-I am also told that if I feel guilty about the sin that it means I haven't done so. (Again, Esau?)
-If looking at the context, it seems most clear that Jesus is saying that if you have blatantly seen the light of God in your life and you actively, knowingly speak out against it then that is blasphemy. And when this happened God hardened the Pharisees hearts (like Pharaohs) so that they COULDN'T find repentance.
-One sermon I listened to said that even if you HAD committed the sin, run to Jesus anyway. Would Jesus forgive even that sin...?
-Hebrew 10 (or 9?) discusses this also. It says that if you have been enlightened on the word of God, and have been convicted then you can be saved. However, if one goes on continuously sinning, then there is no hope left. But I have done just that. Before a few weeks ago, I had been living in sin for 10 years. I was addicted to porn and other sexual immoralities. Through that time I know i was doing wrong, again and again I rejected going after God as I just couldn't bring myself to stop. I wanted to quit and go after God, but the desires of my flesh were strong.
When I gave all this up a few weeks ago, I felt a strong absence of God. I tried crying out but I felt nothing. Has my heart been hardened? Something had to have helped me off the addiction because I most certainly could not have done that myself. It just wasn't in my power. Has God left me? I've been able to feel him lately, however ... but I don't know why I bring this up here. I know I'll only get an answer from someone that I'm still not sure of. Maybe I'm just trying to get things off my chest. I need the truth, not something that will make me feel better...if no one has anything for me, then consider this a confession if nothing else... Thank you...
I am not questioning these thing in that I believe them to be wrong. i believe everything in the scripture as fact, I just don't understand it.
-Jesus said that if you speak out against the Holy Spirit you will not be forgiven. Then why does the scripture repeatedly say that Jesus forgives ALL sin and that his love for us is infinite and eternal?
-I have heard it explained that you can commit the act without knowing it. And that it does indeed put you in line for hell, and that no amount of repentance will change it. Is this true? he used the example of Esau, telling about how he searched for God's forgiveness but found no place of repentance.
-Many say that blasphemy is the act of dying in an unpardonable state. Well, this part of the scripture is not dealing with death - it seems that it is dealing with a verbal sin.
-I am also told that if I feel guilty about the sin that it means I haven't done so. (Again, Esau?)
-If looking at the context, it seems most clear that Jesus is saying that if you have blatantly seen the light of God in your life and you actively, knowingly speak out against it then that is blasphemy. And when this happened God hardened the Pharisees hearts (like Pharaohs) so that they COULDN'T find repentance.
-One sermon I listened to said that even if you HAD committed the sin, run to Jesus anyway. Would Jesus forgive even that sin...?
-Hebrew 10 (or 9?) discusses this also. It says that if you have been enlightened on the word of God, and have been convicted then you can be saved. However, if one goes on continuously sinning, then there is no hope left. But I have done just that. Before a few weeks ago, I had been living in sin for 10 years. I was addicted to porn and other sexual immoralities. Through that time I know i was doing wrong, again and again I rejected going after God as I just couldn't bring myself to stop. I wanted to quit and go after God, but the desires of my flesh were strong.
When I gave all this up a few weeks ago, I felt a strong absence of God. I tried crying out but I felt nothing. Has my heart been hardened? Something had to have helped me off the addiction because I most certainly could not have done that myself. It just wasn't in my power. Has God left me? I've been able to feel him lately, however ... but I don't know why I bring this up here. I know I'll only get an answer from someone that I'm still not sure of. Maybe I'm just trying to get things off my chest. I need the truth, not something that will make me feel better...if no one has anything for me, then consider this a confession if nothing else... Thank you...