The Christian life is so frustrating, but I don't want to give up. I am a mentally challenge individual. I have gotten through life by fantasizing and movies. I have been depressed because I didn't like my life. David said, somewhere in Psalms, that he hated vain thoughts. Every little thing condemns me. I subconsciously go into fantasy. I could be laying in bed and drift off into fantasy. My fantasies themselves are not evil. Sometimes they are, but now that I am a Christian, I fight the evil fantasies. My fantasies would involve a movie I just watched or a show like Friends. "It was so funny when Phoebe said this or that. If I was there I would have said this or that." That's just one of many examples. I do not know how to just quite. I am starting to do my devotions 30 mins. a day, and I am fighting sin in my life, but this is just too hard. It just seems like every little thing condemns me.
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