Christian struggling with Diaper fetish (AB/DL)

Leviticus 18:19
Do not approach a woman to have sexual relations during the uncleanness of her monthly period.

Surrounded by famous commands about incest (v. 6 - 18), homosexuality (v. 22), and bestiality (v.23), this command is almost unknown. As such, it provides a wealth of insight for systematic analysis. Short of such detailed study, it has one simple warning; taken as a whole, the Law is a wondrous and bewildering thing, but verse by verse, it is easily misused. One man uses verse 22 to accuse a homosexual of sin, but the homosexual responds, displaying that this accuser does not observe verse 19. The homosexual might not be justified, but his accuser now stands condemned by his own misuse of the Law of Moses. If we are to keep this Law, we must keep it all, even down to abstaining from pork products.

Dueteronomy 22:5
A woman must not wear men's clothing, nor a man wear woman's clothing, for the Lord your God detests anyone who does this.

This command is interesting because it isn't placed with the sexual violations, but with commands such as "Do not plant two kinds of seed in your vineyard" (verse 9), "Do not plow with an ox and a donkey yoked together" (verse 10), "Do not wear clothes of wool and linen woven together" (verse 11), and "Make tassels on the four corners of the cloak you wear" (verse 12). While this passage is about transvestism, it may also be a call to purity: The Jews, who the Law was given to, were God's chosen people. As such, it was important that they not intermingle with the pagans. This theme of isolated purity is echoed in numerous laws.

Other possible interpretations could be shared with Re 3:15, "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish that you were either one or the other." This can be read that purity in and of itself has value.

Deuteronomy 23:12-14
Designate a place outside the camp where you can go to relieve yourself. As part of your equipment have something to dig with, and when you relieve yourself, dig a hole and cover up your excrement. For the Lord your God moves about in your camp to protect you and to deliver your enemies to you. Your camp must be holy, so that he will not see among you anything indecent and turn away from you.

A favorite verse of backpackers, this passage gives a doctrinal justification for sanitary practices. The Old Testament also had an extensive list of things which caused uncleanness, such as menstruation (Leviticus 15:19) and childbirth (Leviticus 12:1-2). These were distinct from sins, but were viewed similarly by the culture.

Leviticus 15:2-3
...When any man has a bodily discharge, the discharge is unclean. Whether it continues flowing from his body or is blocked, it will make him unclean.

It is conceivable that this verse is about incontinence. If so, it describes it as an uncleanness.

Matthew 5:27-28
(27) "You have heard that it was said, 'You shall not commit adultery;' (28) but I tell you that everyone who gazes at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart."

Matthew 19:7-10
(7) "Why then," they asked, "did Moses command that a man give his wife a certificate of divorce and send her away?" (8) Jesus replied, "Moses permitted you to divorce your wives because your hearts were hard. But it was not this way from the beginning. (9) I tell you that anyone who divorces his wife, except for marital unfaithfulness, and marries another woman commits adultery." (10) The disciples said to him, "If this is the situation between a husband and wife, it is better not to marry." (11) Jesus replied, "Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. (12) For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. Those who can accept this should accept it.

See also 1st. Corinthians 7:25-28.

The relevance here is that of moderation. Purity and perfection are to be valued, certainly. However, they may not be attainable. To decide not to wear diapers is morally safer, for the most part, but not wearing diapers is more easily said than done. Much the same can be said for marrying (1Co 7:32-35), but most people just do it anyway. Those who are able hold to these should do so, but it won't make them more perfect than those who cannot.

Romans 14:22-23
So whatever you believe about these things keep between yourself and God. Blessed is the man who does not condemn himself by what he approves. But he who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith, and everything that does not come from faith is sin.

If you have questions about the morality of infantilism, deal with them before acting. Do not do anything you are unsure of. This is moderated by 1 Corinthians 10:25-28, which advises against raising unnecessary questions of conscience. 1 Corinthians 10:32-33 summarizes "...whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. (32) Do not cause anyone to stumble..."

1st. Corinthians 3:1-3
Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual, but as worldly-mere infants in Christ. (2) I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready. (3) You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarreling among you are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men?

Although it may be excusable, spiritual immaturity among Christians is a bad thing; the equivalent of mental retardation or stunted growth. Christians should strive to become mature, but whether these spiritually mature Christians wear physical diapers is another matter. Sadly, many churches never outgrow 1st. Corithians.

1st. Corinthians 10:23
"Everything is permissible for me" - but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible" - but not everything is constructive.

Christians are not bound by the Law of Moses, but this freedom must must not give rise to a self-serving lawlessness.

1st. Corinthians 13:11
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned as a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

Like 1st. Corinthians 3:1-3, this text uses emotional maturity as an analogy for spiritual maturity. Please see the note for that verse.

Ephesians 4:14
The we will no longer be infants, tossed back and fourth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming.

See 1st. Corinthians 3:1-3.

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My relationship with God is important to me, and it is necessary for me to reconcile anything I do with that relationship. This essay is about how I reconcile my adult-baby desires and activities with what I believe God wants for me.

The Bible

Although I do not accept every word in the Christian Bible as the direct word of God (but that's another essay), it is still important to me. Even those who pick through the Bible looking for sins to accuse their neighbors of, however, would agree that there is nothing in the Bible specifically about infantilism or adult babies, either for or against. This is not surprising; there isn't much written anywhere about infantilism or adult babies.

Masturbation is sometimes involved in my infantilism activities, though; it could be argued (both for and against) that all my adult-baby activities are a form of masturbation. And masturbation is clearly proscribed in the Old Testament. So, however, are many other things that we never think twice about, such as wearing clothes made of two different types of fabric. I look upon the Old Testament regulations in the books of Exodus, Leviticus, Deuteronomy and so forth as rules and regulations imposed by a God who didn't think the people were ready to understand the spirit of the law. I think that if the anti-masturbation rule were to be restated more in line with the spirit behind it, it would go something like, "The Hebrews must increase in number in order to become a great nation, so have intercourse with your wife rather than masturbating," or "Masturbating makes your wife feel inadequate, so don't hurt her this way." But then this is all speculation from a modern perspective. I don't believe that Christians are intended to follow the Old Testament laws per se, and that's that.

As I see it, what Christians are intended to do is follow the teachings of Christ; if they follow anything else, they're not Christians, strictly speaking. In all the Bible, Christ says nothing at all about sexuality; the closest He gets is when He talks about whether there's marriage in the Kingdom of God. I'm sure there are people out there who would love it if Christ had said something about homosexuality being a sin, or at least about heterosexuality being normal, but He says nothing of the kind. And if something appears in the Epistles, it is only the opinion of an early Christian leader, not the word of God. It seems that before Jesus' blood had dried, each of the apostles started putting his own spin on Jesus' teachings. I consider myself a Christian, and not a Hebrew or a Paulist.

Even if the Gospels did report that Jesus had said something about sexuality, it would still be suspect. The entire Bible has been edited many times over the years, and many decisions have been made about what to put in and what to leave out. At one time there were many versions of each of the books of the Bible, each slightly different from all the rest, and human beings decided which text to include from which versions. Evidence of this process can be seen when the same story is told in different words, which occurs multiple times in both Testaments. My rule of thumb is this — suspect the Gospels, and do not trust the rest of the Bible.

What I Believe

So what do I trust? Jesus made it pretty clear when He gave us His commandments (Matthew 22:37-40):

• Love God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind
• Love your neighbor as yourself (implicit in this one is that you should love yourself too)

If I throw away all the dross, this remains: Jesus wants me to love God, my fellow beings, and myself. A more beautiful message cannot be imagined. But what, concretely speaking, does this mean that Jesus wants me to do? I believe that He wants me to do what I want, as long as I consider the needs of God, others, and myself. That is, don't hurt God, others, or myself.

How does one hurt God? It's hard to hurt an omnipotent being, but I think one hurts God by hurting one's relationship with God. Basically, I shouldn't do anything that damages that relationship. As long as I keep thinking about these things, I consider myself to be maintaining that relationship.

How does one hurt others? Clearly there are many ways, both physically and emotionally. I shouldn't litter, for example, because littering makes the world ugly for myself and others. (Perhaps I shouldn't use disposable diapers, because some say that they're bad for the environment. Others say that cloth diapers are bad for the environment too. But doesn't just existing put a strain on the Earth's support system that we all rely on? I'm still wondering about that one.) I must eat meat, because humans are omnivores and are meant to eat meat, but I should not be wasteful of the resources that animals died to provide. I shouldn't indulge in infantilism and ignore my wife, because that would hurt her feelings.

How does one hurt oneself? Well, obviously I shouldn't go cutting off my fingers, but there's no reason I'd want to. But I can hurt myself by doing things that interfere with my goals in life. That means I have to know my goals in life. I must be careful about wearing diapers to work, which I do occasionally — it's unlikely that discovery would lead to my losing my job, but I shouldn't take chances. I must be careful not to get interested in infantilism to the exclusion of all else. But I don't see how simply putting on and using diapers, wearing baby clothes, or using bibs, bottles, pacifiers and other baby items hurts me, others, or my relationship with God.

God made me this way, and that means that God intended for me to be a cute little baby girl inside, and sometimes that baby girl peeks out. What could be wrong with that?

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