Lately I have been seeking the Lords face for a deeper relationship with him and what I am called to do. I am working for a job I currently have no desire to work for and there is something in my heart tellling me there is more. I must admit I have been a little angry with God because I feel he is so distant and he is not hearing my prayers. I am going on a missions trip in April to Africa and have been asking the Lord to guide me. I had a dream the other day and the Lord told me he wanted me to reach the youth. For those that know me know I don't really have patience for children. I have children of my own but I am a very peaceful person and don't like a lot of noise. Yesterday I went into my room to spend time with God and to feel his presence. I went to church yesterday and things were good but I still wanted to feel his presence. As I waited in my room I did not feel his presence and I began to sob and ask the Lord why he is not listening to me and abandoning me. I still feel a little anger in my heart toward him for allowing me to go thought this which I know is wrong. I had a dream last night I was in a house and the roof was leaking water. I was Trying to find cups because the water at first came through the roof as drops and then it started to get heavier. What does this mean?