- Apr 21, 2020
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Hey guys! I'm new here and this is my first time posting. Im 16 and
this is kind of hard to explain but I hope you guys can get where I'm getting at and tell me if this is normal to every teenager. Okay, here we go, so I never thought much about the rapture when I was younger, I wasn't really worried. But after the coronavirus happened and everything getting shut down and how there's more sin in the world then Sodom and Gamora and how most of the prophecies in the bible have been fulfilled, most of the older people are saying how we are very close to the end time, that God will be coming to take us home. There's like this pain in my chest and my heart does this like weird flip every time its brought up, which is like constantly. There's like this doubting voice in the back of my head saying I probably won't be taken to heaven that I'll be left behind. And there's also this thought where I don't want him to come right now, I want to experience life before God come, everyone, I know who wants God to come fast are all the older people, they've lived their lives and just want Gd to come as quick as possible, but I'm like but what about me? I want to graduate high school, go to college experience being an adult, explore the world get married one day.
Is that selfish of me? I'm scared that my faith isn't strong enough to go to heaven cause if it was then why do I keep doubting myself and why am I scared about the Rapture if it's supposed to be a good thing? shouldn't I feel joy and happiness? There is a little bit of joy but then its quenched by the thought of never experiencing life and that if I'm scared of it I'm probably a bad Christian, This was bugging me so much and I was getting really frantic I know I love god and that he loves me and I always fell this Joy when I talk about him, I love him a lot! but why am I SCARED? I'm so confused I asked a youth leader at youth camp once in front of every kid in the room, she just looked at me confused it was hard to explain it and I'm surprised I explained it WAY better in here than at camp, I was trying to describe how I felt, to explain it, but her face squinted tighter and everyone else was starting to give me the same look. I was getting flustered and my cheeks were turning bright red, I don't remember how exactly she said it but she said something like I probably didn't have enough faith in him. In front of everyone, she made it sound like I had no faith in him whatsoever and it was embarrassing because I know I did, I didn't say anything after, she made me feel very ashamed of myself. She made me feel out of place if you know what I mean? I wanted to defend myself and say I loved God as much as anyone else in the room did and that I'd do anything for him. I just wanted an answer to my question not an accusation. Not something that made me feel worse. Do you guys think you can help me? has anyone else felt this way? or am I just the only one?
Thank you and God Bless!
this is kind of hard to explain but I hope you guys can get where I'm getting at and tell me if this is normal to every teenager. Okay, here we go, so I never thought much about the rapture when I was younger, I wasn't really worried. But after the coronavirus happened and everything getting shut down and how there's more sin in the world then Sodom and Gamora and how most of the prophecies in the bible have been fulfilled, most of the older people are saying how we are very close to the end time, that God will be coming to take us home. There's like this pain in my chest and my heart does this like weird flip every time its brought up, which is like constantly. There's like this doubting voice in the back of my head saying I probably won't be taken to heaven that I'll be left behind. And there's also this thought where I don't want him to come right now, I want to experience life before God come, everyone, I know who wants God to come fast are all the older people, they've lived their lives and just want Gd to come as quick as possible, but I'm like but what about me? I want to graduate high school, go to college experience being an adult, explore the world get married one day.
Is that selfish of me? I'm scared that my faith isn't strong enough to go to heaven cause if it was then why do I keep doubting myself and why am I scared about the Rapture if it's supposed to be a good thing? shouldn't I feel joy and happiness? There is a little bit of joy but then its quenched by the thought of never experiencing life and that if I'm scared of it I'm probably a bad Christian, This was bugging me so much and I was getting really frantic I know I love god and that he loves me and I always fell this Joy when I talk about him, I love him a lot! but why am I SCARED? I'm so confused I asked a youth leader at youth camp once in front of every kid in the room, she just looked at me confused it was hard to explain it and I'm surprised I explained it WAY better in here than at camp, I was trying to describe how I felt, to explain it, but her face squinted tighter and everyone else was starting to give me the same look. I was getting flustered and my cheeks were turning bright red, I don't remember how exactly she said it but she said something like I probably didn't have enough faith in him. In front of everyone, she made it sound like I had no faith in him whatsoever and it was embarrassing because I know I did, I didn't say anything after, she made me feel very ashamed of myself. She made me feel out of place if you know what I mean? I wanted to defend myself and say I loved God as much as anyone else in the room did and that I'd do anything for him. I just wanted an answer to my question not an accusation. Not something that made me feel worse. Do you guys think you can help me? has anyone else felt this way? or am I just the only one?
Thank you and God Bless!
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