I'm going through a very difficult time in my life right now. I'm trying my best, though. I practice an abundance of self-care skills, activities, and things that otherwise bring me joy. I surrender my emotional pain to God, and I've reconnected with my faith. I try to practice acceptance and understand that what I'm going through is a normal reaction to a traumatic loss, a betrayal, and grief. But I'm lonely. I talk to so many people online, but so much of it is small talk. I just don't want to be asked how I am anymore, or what my favorite food is. I want someone to care for me, to be there for me when I'm having crying spells. I want someone who will comfort me without giving me platitudes or cliches. I want someone I can feel safe with, but who won't take advantage of me or my vulnerability. I want someone I can message throughout the day. Maybe someone I can talk to on the phone. Just so I don't feel like I'm so alone with these feelings. I just want another human to be here with me, so to speak.
