Recent content by LookingForward1

Thank you for the info, I spoke with someone who actually spoke at our church who understands both scripture and mental health and from his perspective I need to just let it go. That is what I am trying to do, I also apologize for responding late I have not logged in for awhile.

I have struggled with similar things and spoken to an elder and to some degree I believe confirmation bias can come into play. When I worry about something specific acting as a sign, I would see much more of it but was told to ignore it.

I am open to resources and would appreciate it

Appreciate the resources

I cannot say I’ve been to a church that practices that.

You’re not wrong, ironically I work in the mental health field, the ideal approach is usually exposure response prevention. I wouldn’t mind finding other forms of support though not sure about how much it would cost

It was done as a means of using one fear to overpower the other. With OCD most know their fears are not realistic, but the fears are still present. I discovered if I used another means to challenge the fear though a greater fear from a vow I could get past the first fear, it just ended up spiraling

Not many outside of a few people I know, the vows actually spiraled to the point I couldn’t really keep track of them which ironically helped me let them go and not take them seriously. Outside of one new one that is slightly different from past ones

Thank you, I appreciate the input, it’s something I have to overcome. I just wish I never let it get this bad where I feel like I have to make such vows right but I am working to resist them

I see a nurse practitioner for meds so not technically. Ironically I work in the mental health field so I understand the concept. Even when I do not punish myself it haunts me for months on end at times which is where the hardship lies because I feel like I have something I must do.

I do not want to make them they have been engraved as a response for years but I am trying to work on refraining. For so long Ive been very legalistic in my way of thinking in general so accepting grace has been a struggle and even then I think about how/if one could lose it.

That’s what I like to think but at times they feel intentional and thus doubt haunts me a lot. So much so that I feel like I’m drifting away from God. I suppose OCD is called doubting disease for a reason.

I’m working on controlling it more, many times it can almost be as a reflex to stress. Thank you for your insights and responses

I understand what you mean though maybe I did not explain well in my initial post. Usually the vows themselves are not pertaining to sin or deeds of the flesh. It can be anything as simple as loading clothes into the laundry which was a vow I broke because I vowed to load them all in but missed...

By this are you saying I should punish myself for the vow?