My husband and I got married in 2015 (but we didn't have our wedding ceremony until January 2017). We have been trying to conceive (actively) since 2015. Meaning, no protection whatsoever. All my friends who are about the same age (36ish) have already given birth.
Even my single (divorced) friend gave birth last year. I remember her telling me "it's okay that I got pregnant even if I don't have a partner [the guy is her ex-boyfriend but is married to someone else], at least I was able to experience the 'essence' of being a woman." I kept it to myself, but that comment hurt me so bad since my husband and I have already been TTC when she blurted that line. In return, I told her that we will try to conceive after the wedding in January is over. I didn't want to tell her that we are trying since she already said hurtful things.
All my life I know that I really wanted a kid, but God hasn't answered our prayers. I had relationships in the past and I struggled many times to saying 'no' to doing it, because I wanted to chance it and have a kid. That didn't work out either. Even with my husband, we did not wait until we god married. I regret that we didn't, not only because I think God is punishing us for being disobedient, but also because I hate the fact that I know it hurts God.
I still want to have a baby, but I am losing hope. I'm not sure anymore if God will still answer this prayer. I want to blame my past. I wonder if it would have made any difference if I had stayed pure until I married my husband. I am so down!!!
Please pray with and for us. :-(
Even my single (divorced) friend gave birth last year. I remember her telling me "it's okay that I got pregnant even if I don't have a partner [the guy is her ex-boyfriend but is married to someone else], at least I was able to experience the 'essence' of being a woman." I kept it to myself, but that comment hurt me so bad since my husband and I have already been TTC when she blurted that line. In return, I told her that we will try to conceive after the wedding in January is over. I didn't want to tell her that we are trying since she already said hurtful things.
All my life I know that I really wanted a kid, but God hasn't answered our prayers. I had relationships in the past and I struggled many times to saying 'no' to doing it, because I wanted to chance it and have a kid. That didn't work out either. Even with my husband, we did not wait until we god married. I regret that we didn't, not only because I think God is punishing us for being disobedient, but also because I hate the fact that I know it hurts God.
I still want to have a baby, but I am losing hope. I'm not sure anymore if God will still answer this prayer. I want to blame my past. I wonder if it would have made any difference if I had stayed pure until I married my husband. I am so down!!!
Please pray with and for us. :-(