Marycita
6th March 2008, 10:17 PM
So....
a story for ya...some might know bits of it already ...ha..
Since September...I haven't been sleeping well at all...save for a few nights here and there, I've been having nightmares about my brother since then....
so...yesterday.. I went to work...and on the way there, I was flipping through the radio..and I stopped on the River...and it was the same Jeremy Camp song that I was listening to when I gave my heart to Jesus in 05...and I don't know.. I almost lost it, I'm emotional like that :P....but I didn't...
then I got to work...and there was a card in my cubby hole...and I looked in others' to see if there were cards in theirs..but there weren't...
and so I read it ..and it said "Sleep well, I have everything under control - God"...no name signed to it or anything..
um yeah..that kind of broke me...I started crying...:doh:
so...after my cousin snitched (:P) on me about having a hard time ...my mom was talking about me coming home and transfering to a school near there...and then today in one of my classes I was thinking and it hit me that I don't want to teach...(this part has nothing to do with the actual point of this..so I'll skip ahead :P)...
anyway..I was talking to my brother about it..and he said "Mary, just follow your heart where it takes you. If you want to come here and do social work, go for it, if you want to stick it out at Otterbein, go for it. But just listen to what your heart wants."
and I did...I'm going to transfer and do social work or psychology...
but anyway...then it hit me..(ha, lots of things have been lately :P)...
I have ALWAYS been a heart person....and I've always tried to be a mind person, to some degree...and a couple months ago..I tried to convince myself that I was completely a mind person...
but I'm not...
ergo...I don't care if it's stupid to some people...I don't care if it all never makes sense to my head...
I can't not believe...
a story for ya...some might know bits of it already ...ha..
Since September...I haven't been sleeping well at all...save for a few nights here and there, I've been having nightmares about my brother since then....
so...yesterday.. I went to work...and on the way there, I was flipping through the radio..and I stopped on the River...and it was the same Jeremy Camp song that I was listening to when I gave my heart to Jesus in 05...and I don't know.. I almost lost it, I'm emotional like that :P....but I didn't...
then I got to work...and there was a card in my cubby hole...and I looked in others' to see if there were cards in theirs..but there weren't...
and so I read it ..and it said "Sleep well, I have everything under control - God"...no name signed to it or anything..
um yeah..that kind of broke me...I started crying...:doh:
so...after my cousin snitched (:P) on me about having a hard time ...my mom was talking about me coming home and transfering to a school near there...and then today in one of my classes I was thinking and it hit me that I don't want to teach...(this part has nothing to do with the actual point of this..so I'll skip ahead :P)...
anyway..I was talking to my brother about it..and he said "Mary, just follow your heart where it takes you. If you want to come here and do social work, go for it, if you want to stick it out at Otterbein, go for it. But just listen to what your heart wants."
and I did...I'm going to transfer and do social work or psychology...
but anyway...then it hit me..(ha, lots of things have been lately :P)...
I have ALWAYS been a heart person....and I've always tried to be a mind person, to some degree...and a couple months ago..I tried to convince myself that I was completely a mind person...
but I'm not...
ergo...I don't care if it's stupid to some people...I don't care if it all never makes sense to my head...
I can't not believe...