What's Wrong With Me?

[GrayAngel]

I've been feeling very depressed lately. It comes and goes, but when I feel it it really gets to me. I feel like I'm standing still, and I worry needlessly about losing people who are close to me and being alone, especially when I grow old (I'M SEVENTEEN!!!!).

A friend of mine always says that when you work for God, Satan makes messing with you a higher priority. This is consistent with the way my life has been lately. I sing for my church's youth band, and I've been breaking through my timid nature and talking to people, making a habit of letting go and allowing God to lead me. I'm also in the process of making a suicide prevention program at my college and abroad.

Logically, I should be at peace, but I often feel useless and scared. I need your prayers. I need God to help me.

EDIT: (I've turned eighteen since posting this message.)

[torchbearer]

Hi GrayAngel, my daughter is 17 and also experiences the same. We chatted to a teacher and she said 17 is a very unsettling year for many. There are a lot of ups and downs where you will question certain friendships, evaluate principals upon which you are raised and also, workload at school turns to be a bit tougher during the year. There is also a new fear of the 'unknown' in the world and what is to come in the future. She says it does pass and that everyone settles back down again - she said its the 'transition' from young teen to young adult. I hope this helps. My daughter is a teacher at church and I have watched her fears, anxiety, tears etc... but she is starting to come through it as she ends her 17th year ! hang in there!

Lord Jesus please be with Gray, keep him close to you during this time. May he find the right words and wisdom from you in Your Holy Book. May he stay close and keep centred on Your Word. May he keep himself involved in your church and know that this is a passing stage. May he grow in confidence, may he have people around that support his growth in a positive manner. May he have a spirit of discernment to know what is good and bad advice. In Your Precious Name, we pray! Amen.

[Sharon1973]

I pray that your heart will be peaceful and that your faith will bring you happiness not fear.

I pray that the Lord will ease your heart and enrich you in fellowship. That he will give you the wisdom and courage to seek medical advice if your depression does not lift.

You will be in my heart and prayers sweetheart God Bless :hug:

[Ephesians4]

Gray Angel, You hit the nail right on the head. You're being attacked because you are serving the Lord. Keep praying for Him to guide you and deliver you from evil. Be of good cheer! You're doing well! :)

Father in Heaven, please be with Gray Angel. Please give him peace, joy and comfort. Please deliver him from evil cast out all evil spirits in his midst so they will not return to him or go to anyone or anything else ever. Bless his ministry projects and especially the suicide prevention project. Please help him to share teh Good News of Jesus with everyone he knows and meets. Please let many people come to know Jesus after the seeds he has planted. Keep him close to You always and guide his paths. In Jesus' name we ask these things, Amen.

[Redheadedstepchild]

Praising God for leading you through the process of becoming less timid and helping you allow him to work in your life...thanking him for using you in the music and suicide ministires...and praying for your peace of mind and joy to fill your heart as you follow his will.

[RuthD]

You are doing much good and can take pride in yourself. When you have those disturbing thoughts try not to dwell on them and think of something else. You can train yourself to do that. I have had the same problem too. You are not the least bit useless but that kind of thinking is not good for you, as you know. If you cannot stop thinking that way I suggest you talk to a professional counselor or a pastor. I am praying for you and will keep you in my prayers. God bless you!

[GrayAngel]

I've been doing much better recently. I'm still too critical of myself, but the people around me have been helping me realize my worth. Just last Sunday, we had a weekly thing we call "Crash Time" with the students of our church. The message was being born with a purpose. People were asked to tell of one time they feel like they were used by God for another's benefit, then others who knew them told what they thought that person's purpose is. It was cool.

Anyway, thanks for your prayers, everyone. God bless.

[Saint Melania]

Prayers for you. :crosseo: Everyone has these times, but I think as we mature and grow older we handle them differently. Life will just naturally have ups and downs, and when we serve the Lord and do his will, it seems even worse. I think they call this spiritual warfare.

[RuthD]

I've been doing much better recently. I'm still too critical of myself, but the people around me have been helping me realize my worth. Just last Sunday, we had a weekly thing we call "Crash Time" with the students of our church. The message was being born with a purpose. People were asked to tell of one time they feel like they were used by God for another's benefit, then others who knew them told what they thought that person's purpose is. It was cool.

Anyway, thanks for your prayers, everyone. God bless.
Continuing to pray for you that you become much better. The group sounds real good for you! You do have much worth. All of God's children have worth. Everyone on earth has worth. Yay for you!