A dizzying spiral

[justaGUACAnamedMOLLY]

I'm at a really tough time in my life, and I really would appreciate prayer over it.

The short version is that I've been a Christian since age 6, and have had many wonderful times when I was very close to God while walking in his will.

When I was about 17, I decided that I was tired of feeling so alone. I wanted to go out with my friends, I could never feel quite as included as I want to, and stick to my morals.

After several years of messing up left and right, I don't drink, smoke, I'm in Bible study, and I don't hang out with people who might tempt me back into a bad lifestyle. This has eliminated virtually all of my friends, including my boyfriend of two years who I have depended on a lot.

Also, my grandaddy is in and out of hospitals and nursing homes, which is breaking my mother's heart, and I am who she leans on.

Between my very recent breakup and everything else, sometimes I feel so inadequate to be the person that everyone needs right now.

I cry out to God for his peace, comfort and support every day, and He is the only reason I am still getting out of bed every day. I know that I can't do any of this on my own. I also know that I don't have to.

So, why do I feel so alone?

Please also pray that I will find a new church home.

I am eternally grateful.

-Molly

[Redheadedstepchild]

praying for you Molly...

[prayergal]

Molly,

:hug: :hug: :hug: Sounds like you need a bunch of those and if I could see you in person that is what I'd give. Then I would just sit and listen to you. You know it is okay. God loves and accepts you for being you and you don't have to do anything else.
Here is a prayer that you can pray every day. It comes from Prayers that Avail Much 25th Anniversary Edition. It is my favorite prayer book.

Father, help me to meet new friends--friends who will encourage me. May I find in these friendships the companionship and fellowship You have ordained for me. I know that you are my source of love and friendship. Your love and friendship are expressed through my relationship with You and members of the Body of Christ.
According to Proverbs 27:17, as iron sharpens iron, so friends sharpen the minds of each other. As we learn from each other, may we find a worthy purpose in our relationships, so that I will always please You rather than pleasing other people.
I ask for divine connections--good friendships ordained by You. Thank You for the courage and grace to let go of detrimental friendships. I ask and receive, by faith, discernent for developing healthy relationships. Your Word says that two are better than one, because if one fails, there will be someone to lift that person up.
Father, You know the hearts of people, so I won't be deceived by outward appearances. Bad friendships corrupt good morals. Thank You for quality friends who help me build a stronger character and draw me closer to You. Help me to be a friend to others and to love my friends at all times. I will laugh with those who laugh, I will rejoice with those who rejoice, and I will weep with those who weep. Teach me what I need to know to be a quality friend.
Develop in me a fun personality and a good sense of humor. Help me to relax around people and to be myself--the person You created me to be. Instruct my heart and mold my character, that I may be faithful and trustworthy over the friendships You are sending into my life.
Father, Your Son, Jesus, is my best friend. He is a Friend Who sticks closer than a brother. He defined the standard when He said in John 15:13, "Greater love hath no man than this, than a man lay down his life for his friends."
Thank You, Lord, that I can entrust myself and my need for friends into Your keeping. I submit to the leadership of the Holy Spirit, in the name of Jesus. AMEN

Keep in mind that this is what I call a "canned prayer" and so anything that doesn't apply to you or you don't feel comfortable with you can just leave out. I hope it helps you and yes I will pray you find just the right church.

[torchbearer]

:hug: :hug: :hug: Hi Molly .. I agree with prayergal ...lots of hugs to you from us all. Take great comfort that you have reached the hearts of other christians who are praying for you.

Heavenly Father, Bless this child of yours, Molly - Lord give her comfort, give her strength, give her peace and joy. Lord Jesus, you are our Saviour through whom all things are possible if we believe. Lord Jesus, gives us conviction of faith to know that Molly will form new friendship groups, find a new church to call home and praise you. Lord Jesus, bless her grandfather and mother at this time. Lord, often these trials and tribulations we face are opportunities to grow our fruitful gifts in You. May Molly's fruitful gifts grow so that her testimony to you will bring others before you. Bless your child Lord. Give her an embrace from us and You Almighty. Amen.

[justaGUACAnamedMOLLY]

Thank you so much, you all have been so encouraging to me today, and I could really feel the benefit of your prayers.

I feel so blessed to have found such lovely, supportive prayer warriors!

Thank you,
Molly

[prayergal]

Personally, I am very thankful that the Newbies are finding this part of the forum. It is a privledge to pray for you. Personally, the prayer forum is one of the first places I check every day to see what new needs have been posted there. I'm so glad we were able to encourage you.

[Nilla]

Praying for you and your situation.

:hug:

[Ephesians4]

Father in Heaven, please give Molly peace, hope, joy, love, faith and patience. Father, please bring good Christian friends into her life and help her to get more involved in a good church. Bring a solid Christian boyfriend into her life who will respect her purity and moral values. Cast out her loneliness and all evil spirits that may be in and around her. Give her a passion to share the Gospel of Jesus to everyone she knows and meets. Give her a new thirst to read the Bible. Show her Your purpose for her life. Calm her soul. Keep her close to You always. Bless her in every way. In Jesus' name, Amen.

[justaGUACAnamedMOLLY]

Once again, I am so grateful for everyone who has prayed over me. A couple of weeks ago, God really laid it on my heart that I needed to share the gospel with my ex-boyfriend, and apologize for a couple things.

Well, the ex-boyfriend is a stouch agnostic--he says that he has tried numerous times to talk to God, and that God has never spoken to him, if he's even there at all.

Last night I shared a lot with him about God, and he was pretty receptive. He says that he's glad that it makes me happy, but he still thinks that I've been brainwashed somehow.

Anyway, the awesome thing is that he has agreed to watch 1 lifechurch.tv message for every video that I watch on Ron Paul's website! lol, I will take what I can get.

So, if everyone would really pray for a miracle in his life, that God would show himself to him in a very real, impossible to ignore way.

I firmly believe that God still does miracles, and I also know that this is his will.

Thanks everybody, God bless
Molly

[robannat55]

That's wonderful news Molly. Thanks for the update. I'm praying for you both.

[Sharon1973]

:groupray: I am so glad you are starting to feel better and that you have found a wealth of people who care for you.

:hug: :hug: :hug: Big hugs to add to the many you have been blessed with already.

[Shubunkin]

Prayers for you and family. I hope your can bring your boyfriend to Christ. :crosseo:

[RuthD]

I'm praying to God that all of your needs are met.