Why i let go of the Lords hand if i held it

[savedbyfaithinchrist]

I have no clue i guess i was tired of being something i was not ment to be(fake).
BUT i want that relationship with the lord but it would mean looking like a fool in front of everyone i know.
any idea how i can get threw this?

[Cris413]

I guess I would rather "look" like a fool...than actually be one by denying Christ Jesus.

Brother, please do not worry what the world thinks of you.

One of my favorite Bible verses:

Philippians 1:6 being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.

Matthew 18:11-14 "For the Son of Man has come to save that which is lost"

v12 "What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying?

v13 "And if he should find it, assuredly, I say to you, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray.

v14 "Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.

Prayerfully seek the Lord. He will answer you.

You're relationship with Him is far more important than any earthly relationship.

God bless you. His peace and grace abound!

[flyingsum0]

You're young and your friends do matter. We all know how hard it is to go throuhg life without friends...

Take it one step at a time bro. Start by talking to the Lord, a couple times a day. Listen for His answers, feelings, signs, get to know Jesus. Then after you've got accustom to praying, start reading the Bible. A little bit per night. Reflect on what you read and pray on it. Tell your friends your reading the Bible. Tell them "inquiring minds wanna know".

As your praying and reading progresses, seek out a Church or Bible study, or maybe just fellowship though the CF message boards. Ask questions. Learn and absorb what you can but make sure your constantly letting Jesus into your life...into your heart. Always listen for Him. He will answer.

Take Jesus's hand and let him lead you..let Him fill your heart with the Spirit... Let Him come into your life. Once yourstart walking hand in hand with Him, your friends will seem Him in you and through your example you will be giving Glory back to Him. Hopefully some of them will follow you! If not I guarentee they will at least see a new you...you with His love and strenght in your heart.

Building a realtionship with God is not easy for some...but the rewards are unmeasureable, the walk can be long but you're not alone! Many of us after all these years are still walking the walk, still learninig, still listening...

God Bless you and your new Journey Brother! Talk to the Lord, feel Him, get to know Him, and if you ever need to talk to someone walking with you, feel free to send me a PM...

Peace Brother!

[mont974x4]

You've gotten some good advice already. The best thing to do is develop a good prayer and study life. Know this though, I don't know anyone who hasn't been discouraged at some point, and even some of us go through it repeatedly in periods of great growth and periods of almost stagnation, frustration, and/or discouragement.

I'd start with the NT (beginning to end) and read a chapter or two a day and pray for His teaching and leading. Ask Him to reveal His truth. When you finish the NT start in Genesis and read 3 chapters a day doing the same thing and go all the way through the Bible in a year this way.

And I agree with Sumo, find some brothers and sisters who are solid in the Word to fellowship with, ask questions and just discuss what your all reading together. The more mature Christians are supposed to help encourage the younger believers and these relationships can be great blessings for all involved.

We're here to help as best we can but I think you also need someone local you can call anytime and go have coffee with. I have a dear brother in my local fellowship that I get together with a lot. Sometimes it's a BBQ with our families, sometimes its a hunting or camping trip, or working on my house and we just pick a verse or a topic and we challenge eachother to look in the Bible and discuss and reason things out together...iron sharpening iron. Yes, we do know to push eachothers buttons and we do it from time to time but its in love to get us to think deeper, to challenge each other.

[JesusChristLives]

I have no clue i guess i was tired of being something i was not ment to be(fake).
BUT i want that relationship with the lord but it would mean looking like a fool in front of everyone i know.
any idea how i can get threw this?
I look like a fool everyday in school. People make fun of me for reading my bible. See what i care! They can make fun all they want, i know where im going, i know who i am and who i stand for, and if they dont like it they can get over it

[savedbyfaithinchrist]

Yes thank you for all the great advice i think my main concern is my Wife and Kids.
I try to act like a big tuff Guy around most everyone i know so when i deny the lord on a constant basis saying that i want to be a Christian would make me look very false.
I feal like im on a muddy hill most days with what i want to do sometimes i think i will go to church on sunday other days i care less.
The idea of reading the NT and the OT is a great idea i have read the Bible many times and everytime i open it theres something new to learn.
I just want to not look false even tho my walk would be true if i take it.

[flyingsum0]

I look like a fool everyday in school. People make fun of me for reading my bible. See what i care! They can make fun all they want, i know where im going, i know who i am and who i stand for, and if they dont like it they can get over it

Great reponse lil Bro...this is leading by example!

[pdfiddler]

Fear!

[bluemarkus]

that man is no fool who exchanges what he cannot hold, for something that he cannot lose.

(author i dont remember right now)

grace

Markus

[thunderbyrd]

i think that what you might need is to have a deeper encounter with Jesus than you have yet had. The more you are in His presence, the more time you spend with Him, it is inevitable that you will come to love Him more and more. Then it gets somewhat easier because you will come to want to please Him more than you care what someone else thinks.

and be sure, the absolute best thing you will ever do for your family is to show them that you follow Jesus.