Needing Prayers....

[Lotuspetal_uk]

I was just hoping that you guys can lift me up in prayers this semester. It's the shortest but toughest semester and right now, more than any other time, I feel like I'm mentally going under. :cry: I'm in a teaching job where this week one of the kids (who's got a violent nature, is just 13 and is already nearly 6' tall) had said to one of my colleagues that he was going to rape her - this is how challenging the kids are and we have to deal with this 5 days a week. But this incident - and the apparent lack of action by senior staff has gotten to me - I have to teach this individual and I know it is only a matter of time before something kicks off in my class. I've aired my concerns about the safety of female staff and students but it's as though nothing's being done. And I've come to the realisation or more like certainty that I am NOT paid enough to have to put up with the kinds of things I witness and deal with. It's just like I can't simply walk out due to the fact that my family need my income.

I've nearly phoned in sick today but realised that it would be dumping my classes on my colleagues. But incidents like these are getting to me now whereas before I could put it into perspective and still carry out my duties.

I've also been especially struggling with juggling a full time job with a 3 year old since going full time in Sept 04. Last year I spent going to work nearly every day in tears. This year I'm struggling with the fact that my family life and now spiritual walk - two most important things in my life - is suffering. Last night was another night where I went to bed with a migraine and tears. I'm of the tradition that a mother should be at home with their children, to support them, nurture them and I confess that I'm struggling with the spiritual accuser making me feel like I'm a bad mom when I don't have the energy to play with my daughter or I throw together a quick meal for her because I've broken up numerous fights at school, worked a 10 hour day and then only have 2 hours to feed, bath and bed her.

I desperately need to get out, but also need to have a regular income. I'm beginning to feel like I'm mentally slipping away and I'm losing focus on how I can deal with this.

I'd prayed for the L-rd to show me the direction I need to go, I get enough to where I can sleep but then I wake up and it all starts again. My only glimmer was when I received an information pack yesterday to retrain in my subject area (IT) and leave teaching altogether - but it's just the time though, guys. This morning I haven't got the energy to do the aptitude test in the pack. I honestly don't know which career in this field would match my current salary but also provide me with the time to be more at home with my kid.

I'm increasingly living off coffee to get through my days but for each caffeine peak there are these greater troughs. :sigh:

There's no Messianic congregation near to where I live in the UK, work commitments means that I'm hardly on here anymore. Spiritually I'm feeling like I'm stagnant and again, due to coursework deadlines I had to stop going to the local church these past 5 weeks.

I had to sacrifice shabbat last week in order to meet a deadline at school. This weekend I have school reports and departmental planning. Shabbat meant so much to me in that it was the only 24 hours where I could mentally recharge.

Sorry for the ramblings, folks - I just dont know who to turn to. Not even sure I'll get time to thank you guys for taking the time to read this... but thanks in advance.

Please remember me in your prayers, guys. Really really need it right now. You guys are my only fellowship right now. Vis, if you receive anything at all from the L-rd please let me know. This craziness is kind of preventing me from hearing His voice right now.

Thanks

LP

[Gwenyfur]

You are most definitely in my prayers. I hope this passage brings you comfort as it does me when I'm feeling overwhelmed and facing the evils of this world.

1Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity.


2For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.

3Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

4Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

5Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

6And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.

7Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

8Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.

9For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth.

10For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be.

11But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

12The wicked plotteth against the just, and gnasheth upon him with his teeth. 13The LORD shall laugh at him: for he seeth that his day is coming


Abba Father be with you, keep you and richly bless you.

[plum]

I will immediately be in prayer for you, sister! I will also ask G-d to give words to say that may encourage you as you struggle to find balance, peace, and provision.

:prayer:

[Torah]

Lotuspetal_uk
I have and will pray you will be moved or have the strength to stand under such pursuer.




1) Do you “have” to work? Can you cut back on things, to bring your cost of living down? And be a stay at home “mom”- [the biggest job / ministry there is.]



2) Do a part time Job? Or work from home?



3) Is there a Christian school you can apply at? [My daughter is a teacher at a Christian home school. They have 3 school days, and 2 days there parents teach the homework the teachers send home with the kids. The reasons you have posted is why my daughter did not go to government Schools when she finish her schooling to be a teacher.]



4) You can fight the system and start sending letters, voicing your concern to the next level of leadership. And keep sending letters until you get some action & keep going higher and higher in leadership. I have learned that “the wheel that squeaks the loudest is the one that gets fixed”. Maybe the news paper or TV would like to know how & who the Schools are being run by.



5) You can hire some hit men to take out the problem kid / kids. Just joking LOL.



I’ll be praying for ya.

[stone]

I will pray for you.


Now as far as them troublemakers go, maybe you should get a guest speaker to visit them in your classroom. Maybe someone that has just returned from Iraq and is looking to recruit some fresh meat. lol Sounds like that 6' guy would be a good recruit for the u.k. army. That'll knock some discipline in him that he is probably not getting from home. Teachers here used to make troublemakers sit at the front of the classroom. Also in the schools here, when someone causes problems there is a separate building that they are sent to for a time, depending on how serious their offense was depends on how long they have to attend this separate classroom. It's filled with all the trouble makers and when they act up their the police come in and take them off. So it's either behave properly, or go to jail. Rarely do they act up in that place.

I will also pray for your students that they find peace.

:prayer:

[visionary]

I will be praying that the Lord speaks to your heart directly and gives you the peace that passes all understanding along with the wisdom for what you are to do. May you have the courage to walk the path the Lord has chosen for you. May you be His witness in all things. Be of good courage, for the Lord is with you. Go sit by the Lord and look from His angle at what is going on around you. Pray that the Lord will give you the ears to hear as He hears, the eyes to see as He sees and the Heart to love as He loves. May He bless you with the Words that only He could inspire. You will not fear any evil for your shepard is with you, He will guide and protect you. Genesis 15:1 After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward.We must take the Lord at His Word, and have faith that He will shield us in the face of any danger, and that by standing fast in our faith in Him as our shield, we will witness His power and grace, we will be rewarded with witnessing His saving hand in our lives. Do not be like Abraham who doubted because of what he saw..Genesis 20:11 And Abraham said, Because I thought, Surely the fear of God is not in this place; and they will slay me for my wife's sake.I will be blunt here. Did I see great amount of stress, fear, anxiety, guilt in your post? Yes, you are overwhelmed. Have you forgotten that the Lord is willing to carry your burdens? Let the Lord worry about the big fellow in your class. Let the Lord organize your day so that you can spend more quality time with your child. Let go... Let the Lord work... Start with a personal cleansing of the soul and spirit, wash away yesterdays, mikvaih...

We are to witness.... that means we are to watch the Lord work and report it to others so that they may see. It does not mean we are to take on the budrens that he never gave us. The first place you need to start is in your heart. You and the Lord need to sit down and have a serious talk. You have beeen doing all the crying and pleading and not enough listening. I know this is not what you wanted to hear, but you asked me to see what the Lord would say on the matter. He is about to do mighty miracles in your life and situation. He is waiting for you to be ready to receive them. You are so wound up in the world, you have not seen His which is right before you. He placed you there for a reason, and it is right before you, which whether uncounsciously or consciously you have been fighting against not believing that the Lord has chosen you, but trust Him, He knows you have it in you for the task ahead. Grab the bull by both hands, the Lord will show you how to ride it. You will surprise yourself and find out what a blessing this challenge really is to you and those around you. Deuteronomy 20:3 And shall say unto them, Hear, O Israel, ye approach this day unto battle against your enemies: let not your hearts faint, fear not, and do not tremble, neither be ye terrified because of them;Blessed are you, for the wonder working powers of the Lord will be happening before you, stand strong, rest assured that the Lord is with you, the Lord has put in your heart, His desire, and will be with you to fulfill it. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.He is your anchor, your foundation, and your shelter in the storm, seek your refuge in Him.

[CovenantRay]

Dear Lotuspetal_uk:

Certainly, I'll include you in my prayers. In many ways, I can relate to the pressures that have come to bear upon you. Thank you for sharing with us.

CovenantRay :prayer:

[jgonz]

:hug: :prayer: :prayer: :hug:

[Tishri1]

I will be praying for you too. This may be off the wall but I felt like you should inform the authorities about this boy...if the school officials wont help you and you feel threatened and afraid then you should act on your fears and go over their heads if you have to.....Fear and anxiety are killers in our lives, we cannot live healthy and productive lives with that evil kind of stress, and it affects our families even more than we know.....You will do everyone a favor if you can get him out of there and somewhere he can get help......I wouldn't want my kids in a school with that hostile pervert roaming around much less a classroom with him in it....You can be a great help in this situation, a hero to all the kids who are his potential vicims; if not now, then in the future if he doesn't get help now he will act on his words someday.....I don't usually say things this urgently so I am just gonna see it as a warning from ABBA's spirit

And I will be praying for you alot so take courage too:hug::prayer::groupray:

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Hi everyone,

Just touching base to thank you guys for your prayers.

When you guys started praying I had the most peaceful few days in work. It also turned out that our Headteacher (Principal) had advised us that any pupil making any threatening remarks against teachers are to be reported to the local police for them to take action. This particular boy has not been attending my lessons either by his own compulsion or via his Head of Year taking on board what I said.

There are still intense trials and high work loads, but I'm holding on better than I was a couple of weeks ago. In time I know the L-rd will remove me from this environment.

G-d willing in a few days time I may know whether or not I'll be remaining in this job next academic year. I may be with child :clap: but it's very early days yet. If I am then the decision will have been made for me to devote my time to my children and not to a stressful job.

I'm trying not to get too excited just in case I'm not but so far the fatigue, nausea and intense hunger seems to be quite constant as of late. :)

I'll keep you guys informed.

G-d bless

[visionary]

No wonder you have found it more stressful, your body is trying to tell you something... May this be a blessing for you, and keep us posted as you are still in our prayers.

[Tishri1]

Hi everyone,

Just touching base to thank you guys for your prayers.

When you guys started praying I had the most peaceful few days in work. It also turned out that our Headteacher (Principal) had advised us that any pupil making any threatening remarks against teachers are to be reported to the local police for them to take action. This particular boy has not been attending my lessons either by his own compulsion or via his Head of Year taking on board what I said.

There are still intense trials and high work loads, but I'm holding on better than I was a couple of weeks ago. In time I know the L-rd will remove me from this environment.

G-d willing in a few days time I may know whether or not I'll be remaining in this job next academic year. I may be with child :clap: but it's very early days yet. If I am then the decision will have been made for me to devote my time to my children and not to a stressful job.

I'm trying not to get too excited just in case I'm not but so far the fatigue, nausea and intense hunger seems to be quite constant as of late. :)

I'll keep you guys informed.

G-d bless
how sweet and wonderful please let us know*gentle hugs*

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Shalom all,

Alas this time round it wasn't to be. Yesterday I found out I wasn't pregnant... I guess the time isn't right just yet. The L-rd was as always gracious in that I wasn't as crushed as I thought I'd be (did shed a few tears going into work though). Under normal conditions it was hard - without the stress and long hours I do. The last time I caught I was a stay at home wife. Five years prior to that I was teaching and we couldn't conceive. With my present work conditions I don't think I'd have made it full term anyway, especially with my age.

Yesterday was harder going into work - my three year old did not want to go to Day Care and sobbed when I had to get her ready. She kept saying that she wanted to stay home with mommy and was very clingy. I'm just praying that in time she'll get her wish and I can spend more time with her.

So I guess until then I'll have to continue to let go and let G-d so that I can get through this semester. :sigh:

[Tishri1]

well then I will just have to pray for two things then;)

[Lotuspetal_uk]

well then I will just have to pray for two things then;)

:hug: Thanks sis :)

[plum]

*hugs you tight* thank you so much for the updates, Lotus. You know, your siganture is totally true. I'm getting to the end myself nearly and I find my faith having to stretch and fill out the spaces that didn't need so much faith before.

I shall be praying for your wee one and your job situation!

[christinepro]

Done!!

[Lotuspetal_uk]

*hugs you tight* thank you so much for the updates, Lotus. You know, your siganture is totally true. I'm getting to the end myself nearly and I find my faith having to stretch and fill out the spaces that didn't need so much faith before.

I shall be praying for your wee one and your job situation!

Thanks sis :hug:

I'll be praying for you also - as you've said sometimes our faith has to stretch and fill out when we're pushed to the limit. I truly thank G-d that I have Him. I feel that without my faith and your prayers, I was close to a nervous breakdown these past few weeks.

G-d bless

[MattyJames]

Greetings Lotuspetal_UK,

I am fairly new to this Forum so I meet you for the first time. G-ds mercy and grace be upon you and yours, for it seems, this is your greatest need.

As I read you original post I was reminded by what the great apostle Paul wrote in Romans 8:28 "We know that all things work together for good to them that love G-d, to them who are called according to his purpose."

he continues in verse 31"What shall we then say to these things? if G-d be for us, who can then be against us? 32: He that spared not his own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?"

First of all please forgive me if I should speak out of place, I hope HaShem directs my tongue. Our love toward G-d is manifested by our love toward our fellow human. You have seen G-ds calling in your life, you are a Mother. I have seen the damages of part-time parenting in my immediate family and I urge you to seriously and prayerfully ponder at your career. What price can one put on time? Moreover, time with family. Take heed of your conscience, for to go against conscience is neither right, nor safe.

I urge you to hear the words of Moshe Ex 14:13 "And Moses said unto the people, Fear not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord...."

And as you stand still, be prepared to sacrifice and obey, for this is the evidence of Faith. Last but not least, its not the voice of men you need to hear, but that still, small voice, the voice of G-d. Be still and see His Salvation.

Once again, do add salt if needed. I send my prayers and blessings.:prayer:

May G-ds grace be with you and yours,

MattyJames

[MattyJames]

Greetings Lotuspetal_UK,

I am fairly new to this Forum so I meet you for the first time. G-ds mercy and grace be upon you and yours, for it seems, this is your greatest need.

As I read you original post I was reminded by what the great apostle Paul wrote in Romans 8:28 "We know that all things work together for good to them that love G-d, to them who are called according to his purpose."

he continues in verse 31"What shall we then say to these things? if G-d be for us, who can then be against us? 32: He that spared not his own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?"

First of all please forgive me if I should speak out of place, I pray HaShem directs my tongue.

Our love toward G-d is manifested by our love toward our fellow human. You have seen G-ds calling in your life, you are a Mother. I have seen the damages of part-time parenting in my immediate family and I urge you to seriously and prayerfully ponder at your career. What price can one put on time? Moreover, time with family. Take heed of your conscience, for to go against conscience is neither right, nor safe.

I urge you to hear the words of Moshe Ex 14:13 "And Moses said unto the people, Fear not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord...."

And as you stand still, be prepared to sacrifice and obey, for this is the evidence of Faith. Last but not least, its not the voice of men you need to hear, but that still, small voice, the voice of G-d. Be still and see His Salvation.

Once again, do add salt if needed. I send my prayers and blessings.:prayer:

May G-ds grace be with you and yours,

MattyJames

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Greetings Lotuspetal_UK,

I am fairly new to this Forum so I meet you for the first time. G-ds mercy and grace be upon you and yours, for it seems, this is your greatest need.

As I read you original post I was reminded by what the great apostle Paul wrote in Romans 8:28 "We know that all things work together for good to them that love G-d, to them who are called according to his purpose."

he continues in verse 31"What shall we then say to these things? if G-d be for us, who can then be against us? 32: He that spared not his own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?"

First of all please forgive me if I should speak out of place, I hope HaShem directs my tongue. Our love toward G-d is manifested by our love toward our fellow human. You have seen G-ds calling in your life, you are a Mother. I have seen the damages of part-time parenting in my immediate family and I urge you to seriously and prayerfully ponder at your career. What price can one put on time? Moreover, time with family. Take heed of your conscience, for to go against conscience is neither right, nor safe.

I urge you to hear the words of Moshe Ex 14:13 "And Moses said unto the people, Fear not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord...."

And as you stand still, be prepared to sacrifice and obey, for this is the evidence of Faith. Last but not least, its not the voice of men you need to hear, but that still, small voice, the voice of G-d. Be still and see His Salvation.

Once again, do add salt if needed. I send my prayers and blessings.:prayer:

May G-ds grace be with you and yours,

MattyJames

Brother Matty,

Thanks for your post - it was very encouraging and definately not out of place :) You've touched and encouraged me in terms of realising that my ultimate goal is to return to being a full time SAHM.

I've pondered over what you've said and it does tie in with the larger scheme of things in my life. Every day I witness the consequences of children who spend the bulk of their day in Day Care (in excess of 9 hours a day like my little one). The fact that my daughter follows me everywhere when I am at home shows me that I will need to change careers to one that will eventually rebuild her self-esteem and confidence. I know that my boss has said that little ones are more robust than we give them credit for but at the same time, I know that my little one is not enjoying our times apart.

I realise now that I will need to remain where I am for a little while, however, I really do feel that the L-rd is setting into place all that I will need in order to remain at home but still survive our UK extortionate standard of living. :)

I would really love to produce Messianic based e-books for kids and because of my subject I am now accumulating software needed to create the graphics and animation. So, G-d willing in time....

G-d bless

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Shalom all,

Just had to let you guys know that I finally managed to reach our Half Term here (abit like Spring Break in the US).

Shabbat was soooo peaceful and restful and now my energy levels are returning. :clap:

Since my last post I met up with a rep for a company called 'Computeach'. He recommended that I study for a MCP (Microsoft Certification Professional) qualification which, after 2 years will open up more options for me to work from home or return to hours more suited to taking care of my child.

I'm just praying and consulting the L-rd over this as to whether this is the way He wants me to go or whether it is to remain in teaching. My initial feelings are that of hope since I have been praying for some kind of relief or 'light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel' where my current situation is bearable and this has certainly lifted my spirit.

So, praise the L-rd at least for this week I will be hanging around here more. :)

G-d bless

LP

[Espada]

Shalom all,

Just had to let you guys know that I finally managed to reach our Half Term here (abit like Spring Break in the US).

Shabbat was soooo peaceful and restful and now my energy levels are returning. :clap:

Since my last post I met up with a rep for a company called 'Computeach'. He recommended that I study for a MCP (Microsoft Certification Professional) qualification which, after 2 years will open up more options for me to work from home or return to hours more suited to taking care of my child.

I'm just praying and consulting the L-rd over this as to whether this is the way He wants me to go or whether it is to remain in teaching. My initial feelings are that of hope since I have been praying for some kind of relief or 'light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel' where my current situation is bearable and this has certainly lifted my spirit.

So, praise the L-rd at least for this week I will be hanging around here more. :)

G-d bless

LP

Stop, don't go near CompuTeach, they sell you all these promises but in reality an MCP will not get you into a job on its own.

I am somewhat confused by you wanting to get out of teaching to improve your hours, that is why I got into teaching. It maybe that you just need to change schools or subject.

Do you mind me asking what subject do you teach?

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Stop, don't go near CompuTeach, they sell you all these promises but in reality an MCP will not get you into a job on its own.

I am somewhat confused by you wanting to get out of teaching to improve your hours, that is why I got into teaching. It maybe that you just need to change schools or subject.

Do you mind me asking what subject do you teach?

Shalom Espada

I've had mixed reviews on Computeach - was this what you found?

Do you reckon an MCP might help if one was to set up a business creating educational software? I was kind of thinking more down this route. With remaining in teaching I'm very rusty on the software and systems available to create something I could sell. I dunno, I'm just looking for somewhere where I can devote my evenings and weekends to my family and not have to keep bringing work home.

I teach ICT and Business Studies, plus the school is very challenging. On Friday I brought home 38 pieces of coursework which will take me about 1-2 hours each to mark. I also have 16 Business Studies units to mark, plus a Year 10 DiDa unit to get through this Half Term. I'm just not sure that teaching is for me now that I have a child. At my previous school the work load and expectations were worse because the school's pass rate expectation in GCSE's was 98% which meant that very few teachers left school before 5.30pm and most were in before 8.00am.

Sure, I gain the weeks off but when you calculate the evenings and weekends that you're marking, doing reports and planning, then the breaks when you're catching up, the total time off only equates to 20 days annual leave. I've come to realise that I may as well pursue a job where I actually get the 20 days but will not get the evening and weekend work where my child is spending so long in Day Care.

When I worked in industry I did a 7 hour day which was boring when I was childless, but now as a mom I miss the flexible hours.

[Espada]

Shalom Espada

I've had mixed reviews on Computeach - was this what you found?

Do you reckon an MCP might help if one was to set up a business creating educational software? I was kind of thinking more down this route. With remaining in teaching I'm very rusty on the software and systems available to create something I could sell. I dunno, I'm just looking for somewhere where I can devote my evenings and weekends to my family and not have to keep bringing work home.

I teach ICT and Business Studies, plus the school is very challenging. On Friday I brought home 38 pieces of coursework which will take me about 1-2 hours each to mark. I also have 16 Business Studies units to mark, plus a Year 10 DiDa unit to get through this Half Term. I'm just not sure that teaching is for me now that I have a child. At my previous school the work load and expectations were worse because the school's pass rate expectation in GCSE's was 98% which meant that very few teachers left school before 5.30pm and most were in before 8.00am.

Sure, I gain the weeks off but when you calculate the evenings and weekends that you're marking, doing reports and planning, then the breaks when you're catching up, the total time off only equates to 20 days annual leave. I've come to realise that I may as well pursue a job where I actually get the 20 days but will not get the evening and weekend work where my child is spending so long in Day Care.

When I worked in industry I did a 7 hour day which was boring when I was childless, but now as a mom I miss the flexible hours.

I teach just ICT, which makes it easier than teaching two, I am also hoping to drop down to 50% teaching soon as the school has asked me if I might take on extra responsibilities.

An MCP is unlikely to be any help in creating software as that is more the sys admin side of things, it won't really teach you the programming side of things. I would love to see some more educational software though.

Just finishing D201 with a couple of my sets this half term!

You are likely to get a better standard of education from your local college or the OU than from computeach.

[Lotuspetal_uk]

I teach just ICT, which makes it easier than teaching two, I am also hoping to drop down to 50% teaching soon as the school has asked me if I might take on extra responsibilities.

An MCP is unlikely to be any help in creating software as that is more the sys admin side of things, it won't really teach you the programming side of things. I would love to see some more educational software though.

Just finishing D201 with a couple of my sets this half term!

You are likely to get a better standard of education from your local college or the OU than from computeach.

Thanks Espada, I think that I'll look into OU and see what they offer. It's certainly good to talk :) because at the moment Computeach has got 50/50 reviews in favour and against.

I'd like to design some software to help us with assessing the KS3 Strategy Units and anything that will promote independant learning in KS4 and KS5. As well as creating Biblical e-books on par with the e-books in Nick Jr.com. The e-books would be easier for me but time is the problem with my current job.

I like the look of DiDA but again observe that it is not good at enabling us to provide the kids with formative feedback. I'm looking at something where a child will get feedback on individual units as well as us having data which can indicate the curriculum level that the student is at for that particular unit. Basically something that will assist in reducing the hours spent in marking within our subject area and G-d willing save a few trees in the process (less printouts). :)