Deception or ....?

[Hermenitt]

I posted this in the traditional Adventists board, but I wanted to post this here also. Ok, long story very short: I am not allowed to speak with our pastor. I feel I didn't deserve this punishment, and have continued to email him as needed. Of course, he never emails back. Which is frustrating because I am newly back to adventism and really have questions that need to be answered... anyway I digress. I really wasn't sure if he was even opening my emails or just deleting them so I sent him an email under another one of my email addresses and didn't sign it. I just have tried changing my outlook on things and wanted to start where I was being the most negative, towards him. Well he did email me back. I should have left it there I know, but something prompted me to reply with a thank you for communicating with me. Now, I feel guilty. I wasn't intentionally trying to decieve him I just wanted him to get the message, but now it feels like deception. Should I tell him? Would this just further make things worse? I've been praying about it, but cannot find any peace.

[StormyOne]

I posted this in the traditional Adventists board, but I wanted to post this here also. Ok, long story very short: I am not allowed to speak with our pastor. I feel I didn't deserve this punishment, and have continued to email him as needed. Of course, he never emails back. Which is frustrating because I am newly back to adventism and really have questions that need to be answered... anyway I digress. I really wasn't sure if he was even opening my emails or just deleting them so I sent him an email under another one of my email addresses and didn't sign it. I just have tried changing my outlook on things and wanted to start where I was being the most negative, towards him. Well he did email me back. I should have left it there I know, but something prompted me to reply with a thank you for communicating with me. Now, I feel guilty. I wasn't intentionally trying to decieve him I just wanted him to get the message, but now it feels like deception. Should I tell him? Would this just further make things worse? I've been praying about it, but cannot find any peace.
yeah you engaged in deception... is there another church in the area you can attend to get a new start or are you stuck there? As for making it worse... it is worse... own up to it apologize and realize that it may that he chooses not to speak to you at all... Of course his actions arent the most christian, but you have no control over him... you can only do what God prompts you to do... that's my take given the little I know about the situation......