Is It The Holy Spirit? Or Something Else?

[snickerdoodle]

Hello, everyone! I've been lurking around here for a little while now, and I just now joined. Sorry I haven't prettied up my posts yet (no av or anything neat) but I'm just anxious to jump in. I'll get to that part later.

Anyway, I have a question. Everytime I read the Bible, or listen to Gospel music, or pray I just break down in tears. I'm so moved by the experience of each thing, and I can't help myself. I feel so guilty about how I've lived my life in the past. I wonder how God is ever going to forgive me. I've broken just about every commandment there is, and I don't feel worthy of His love and forgiveness. I'm tearing up even as I type this.

Someone once told me that it's the Holy Spirit that enters me when I most need it. All I know, is that I get weepy and my heart just feels like it's going to explode. (Almost like when you're in love...it's that kind of feeling)

Can anyone here shed some light on this for me?

[StAnselm]

If it's making you recognise the things you've done wrong, and ask for forgiveness - then I would say it's the work of the Holy Spirit.

He works in all of us in different ways, however. For some of us it's more of an emotional feeling than for others.

Anyway, thank you for sharing! It's wonderful to hear how God is working in you. Praise Jesus!

[snickerdoodle]

Well, I'd like to find a church to go to, but I'm worried that I'll make a spectacle of myself. I remember one time a long time ago, I went to a church that had a gospel group performance, and I just sat there with tears streaming down my face when they were singing. Some people there were pointing at me openly, and made me feel embarassed to be there. After it was over, I quickly left. I don't want to be made ashamed of the way I feel.

[Adstar]

Well, I'd like to find a church to go to, but I'm worried that I'll make a spectacle of myself. I remember one time a long time ago, I went to a church that had a gospel group performance, and I just sat there with tears streaming down my face when they were singing. Some people there were pointing at me openly, and made me feel embarassed to be there. After it was over, I quickly left. I don't want to be made ashamed of the way I feel.

Snickerdoodle :hug:

The Holy Spirit is really working on you big time. :) Do not be ashamed of your sensitive heart, it is beautiful. :thumbsup: Those who pointed at you, like they did, should be the ashamed ones. You do not need to feel worthy of anything, All you have to do is believe Jesus. And i can see from your posts here that the Holy Spirit is dwelling in you. So be happy and rejoice in your heart because you are saved and God has a place for you in eternity.

Isaiah 57
15 For thus says the High and Lofty One Who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: “ I dwell in the high and holy place,With him who has a contrite and humble spirit, To revive the spirit of the humble, And to revive the heart of the contrite ones.

He is talking to people just like you Snickerdoodle.


This world is full of insensitive uncaring people. If i was sad lonely and down i would want to have someone like you to come and comfort me.


All Praise The Ancient Of Days

[Kehaar]

Hi Snickerdoodle :wave:

I agree with the other two posters, that this is the Holy Spirit at work. :D

I've had similar experiences in the past when I have felt convicted or humbled by the Spirit. I've felt unworthy, undeserving, like yourself I would wonder if I could be forgiven. Then I'd be in tears for another reason - because God does forgive us, because of the debt He payed for us, for His love and faithfulness to us when we are so uttery undeserving.

Psalm 103: 8-14 NIV

The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.

He will not always accuse, nor will he harbour his anger for ever;

he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;

as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.

[twistedsketch]

The Holy Spirit will move you to being contrite about your sins. But He is never abusive. Satan launches two main lies at us: That we are not sinners, or that we are so bad that Jesus cannot or will not forgive us. The Holy Spirit fights against both those lies. He will make you aware of your sins, but He will also make you aware of the cross and God's unconditional love for you. And once you've been forgiven, God won't be bringing them up again.

"For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more." - Hebrews 8:12

"If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives. My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world. " - 1 John 1:8-2:2

[FireOfGod]

You've already been forgiven... Remember what Jesus did on the cross? That was for you. It doesn't matter how you feel about it, God's already forgiven you and sees every good thing in you. It's life... Don't dwell on the past and feel guilty, dwell on God and just feel his presence. The rest doesn't even matter anymore. :)

[teffie]

hey, im steph.
i used to be the same, i still am. whenever im at youth, i break down in tears, not because im sorry, just because i feel so much love and passion for god. if your feeling bad about previous things you've done in your life, dont. its simply. just pray to god, and ask him for forgivness. but you need to really want forgivness to be forgiven. if your just asking so you dont feel bad, dont waste your breath. god knows when your feeling it with your heart or not. pray for it, and you will get forgiven. you will know when you are. you'll feel much, much better. you also have to accept you are forgiven afterwards. if you really want to be forgiven, and ask for it, you will be. god is a merciful god. and very forgiving. he took your place on the cross for you, he took the hit for your sins. accept forgivness. and leave your past as it is, your past. you cant change it now, you can only look forwards, not back. you've learn from your mistakes, there nothing more to gain in pondering these actions. you had your reasons at the time, just like everyone does. leave it alone. its your past, and look forwards, look toward god and follow him. he will lead you.

when your feeling overwhelmed and start crying during gospel songs or prayer, or bible readings, thats normal. your not weird, your not strange, dont be embarassed. it may be the holy spirit moving within you, thats most probable. its a very good thing, god is coming to you when you need him. god is sending the holy spirit over you, he's showing you he's with you, and you can lean on him and turn to him.

do not feel embarassed of anything t odo with god, stand proudly. theres NOTHING wrong with crying, i dont care what age, male, female, it doesnt matter. it doesnt matter to god, so it shouldnt matter to you. if your feeling overwhelmed, then feel it!! act on instincts, and NEVER hold back, cause you'll regret it. beleive me dont hold back, dont restrain yourslef. BE ON FIRE FOR GOD, and stand proudly. those people who were pointing, arent even worth a thought. like i said, dont dwell on the past. those people may well have been admiring your guts and the fact you werent ashamed. i know i do. i cry alot, but when i was a new christian, i was in awe of those who could pronounce gods name openly, and not care what anyone else thought. so you dont worry about what anyone else thinks. the important thing is what god thinks, and if he's sending the spirit down on you, then he's happy with you. gods proud of you, so you be proud too. dont hold bACk, ever, go and find a friendly church where you can grow and prosper!!! dont worry about anyone or anything, your in gods hands now.

you are an awesome person, and god has his own divine plan for you, so relax, cause your in gods hands, and if you cant trust his hands, you cant trust anyones. let god move within you, like he is cause he loves you so PASSIONATELY and you will be forgiven for anything.

may god bless you,
ill be praying
amen
steph

[whitedove7]

You know the enemy is lying to you! When we ask for forgiveness for sins, becasue we all fall short, it is forgotten. You are forgiven right on the spot. I want to share a visual to help you see! Ok this is after a person has repented and turned from it.

Satan goes to the thrown room of God with all these accusations and charges against you. He has a stack of cases against you and is now going to present them to the Lord.

Satan goes through the entire list of your sins to the Lord and the Lord is listening to the accusations. Then the Lord takes these cases against you and goes into his chambers to make a decision. When in his chamber, he opens the door and throws all these cases out because the word says when we repent, then it is forgotten as deep as the see or as far from the east to west.

The Lord comes out of his chambers and satan asked what the verdict is and the Lord answers "I don't know what you are talking about."

The Lord says "This person you are accusing is "INNOCENT" because she is my child. I have a purpose for her or him. I have a plan for this person."

"This case is dismissed", says the Lord.

Blessings to you!

[DIVA_for_Christ]

Hello, everyone! I've been lurking around here for a little while now, and I just now joined. Sorry I haven't prettied up my posts yet (no av or anything neat) but I'm just anxious to jump in. I'll get to that part later.

Anyway, I have a question. Everytime I read the Bible, or listen to Gospel music, or pray I just break down in tears. I'm so moved by the experience of each thing, and I can't help myself. I feel so guilty about how I've lived my life in the past. I wonder how God is ever going to forgive me. I've broken just about every commandment there is, and I don't feel worthy of His love and forgiveness. I'm tearing up even as I type this.

Hey snickerdoodle!!!

I’m so excited for you. God is working in you in a mighty way. When I get the way you describe I start confessing whatever is on my heart to God. I tell Him every foul, disgusting, evil, treacherous, wicked thing I’ve done, doing, thought of doing, etc. I’ve even had to go off on Him to tell Him about the anger I had towards Him for certain situations He allowed to happen in my life when I was an innocent child. I broke down on the floor crying, screaming, just hurt and broken, but when I reached that point, the Holy Spirit ministered to me and healed me from a lot of my childhood hurt and pain that lead to a lot of the things I did growing up.

The thoughts that God is never going to forgive you are lies from the enemy. He knows that once you realize just how much God loves you, who you are in Christ and that you are already forgiven, you will tear up his kingdom.

I’m going to quote a paragraph from Juanita Bynum’s book (The Threshing Floor) that I’m currently reading. This book really breaks down the pattern God has set for us for prayer and how to reach Him every time we pray. Remember when we pray for ourselves, we are in intercessory prayer for ourselves. Here’s the paragraph: ["When you go into intercession, the only weapon the devil should possess against you is your past—and he will never win the battle when he tries to play the "past" game with you. If he brings your past to your mind in prayer, then you have already won. When he brings your past before you, remind him of his past! Say, "I remember when you were thrown out of heaven, and everyone on earth took your place in praise and worship! I remember when Christ made an open show of you, stripped you of your authority, and took the keys of death, hell, and the grave away from you. Most of all, I remember that you live in hell—and you don’t even control that, because Jesus has the keys!""]

Someone once told me that it's the Holy Spirit that enters me when I most need it. All I know, is that I get weepy and my heart just feels like it's going to explode. (Almost like when you're in love...it's that kind of feeling)

Can anyone here shed some light on this for me?

The Holy Spirit is always dwelling within you. He doesn’t jump in and out. You received the Holy Spirit at salvation. He will comfort us when we need it just as much as He will bring to remembrance anything we need to repent of.

He is definitely loving on you, allow Him to love you.

[foundationguy]

Some people there were pointing at me openly, and made me feel embarassed to be there. After it was over, I quickly left. I don't want to be made ashamed of the way I feel.

Just a thought as I was reading this and I certainly don't know since I wasn't there, but it might be possible they were pointing at you and saying things like "Wow, there's some God is really speaking to" or "There's someone in love with the Lord". Don't assume they were saying negative things unless you know for sure. And even if they were saying negative things, it doesn't matter. You weren't there to please them but to please God.

[280305]

Hello, everyone! I've been lurking around here for a little while now, and I just now joined. Sorry I haven't prettied up my posts yet (no av or anything neat) but I'm just anxious to jump in. I'll get to that part later.

Anyway, I have a question. Everytime I read the Bible, or listen to Gospel music, or pray I just break down in tears. I'm so moved by the experience of each thing, and I can't help myself. I feel so guilty about how I've lived my life in the past. I wonder how God is ever going to forgive me. I've broken just about every commandment there is, and I don't feel worthy of His love and forgiveness. I'm tearing up even as I type this.

Someone once told me that it's the Holy Spirit that enters me when I most need it. All I know, is that I get weepy and my heart just feels like it's going to explode. (Almost like when you're in love...it's that kind of feeling)

Can anyone here shed some light on this for me?
hi Snickerdoodle,

I felt/ feel exactly the same way! Sometimes it feels like my heart can't stand it - the glory, the joy, the deep belonging and longing for Jesus and God, the beauty of the name of Jesus! It is definitely the Holy Spirit moving in you and I am glad that you feel so convicted of your sins - tho actually it seems kinda strange to say! - I think this points to a sincere heart before the Lord and a definite movement of the Holy Spirit. I had a specific experience where it was lust and knowing that in my past I had looked at pornography, and I was absolutely gutted to think that I could not serve in ministry because of the pure grief I felt over that. I felt like Job, I was ground into the dust, my mouth was like ashes, and all was woe. But thankfully, my caring Christian friends just reminded me that it was good to treat sin seriously!

I can't remember the exact verse, but I remember reading in the Bible that we are brought before the Lord in joy, but also that the times are to help us go through mourning.