A change

[Velcro]

When I came here, I admittedly did not want anyone to learn much about the "me" -- about who I am. I had no idea then what I would be going through within weeks of coming. Because of what I am going through, I have removed the Messianic icon from my posts. i do not want what I write to necessarily connected with my shul, my leaders, this area, or anyone who writes here.

The significant thing about what is happening is the fact that while I am hurting because of it, uncomfortable with it, worried over it, losing sleep over it, headachy, etc., I know from experience that when it is over, I will be better for it. One more area in my life will have been healed.

However, I fear that this particular area is going to completely encompass my life and relationships, rather than just self-pruning as it has been in the past. I am not looking forward to the rest of this pruning process; I will be glad when it is over. Admittedly, I am concerned about what will be pruned away.

I had better not say more -- I'm getting emotional. I will just end this by writing the following:
Parents, be kind to your children. As young parents, we have no idea how far-reaching are the things we do and the things we say. Sometimes, what we do/say can be life-encompassing. Sometimes, they eat the hearer alive, leaving nothing but bare, scarred bone.
Don't hurt your babies at any time, and don't let others hurt them. Don't close the doors of communication, because if someone does hurt them, or tries to, they need to be free to tell you.
Remember that what you are, how you live, what you do, what you say, directly effects your child's concept of HaShem. Don't do anything that changes who He truly is in their minds.

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It's not that I am going anywhere. I'll be around. I'll still write here. But I just do not want to be seen, necessarily, as so much a part of this group, until the healing of this area in my life is complete -- or perceived by me to be complete.

[Sephania]

:confused: Have we done something to offend you Velcro?

[Velcro]

Not At All! No one has! I am just going through one of the most difficult times of my adult life, and worse, I have to carry it alone, as far as other human beings go. I am just having a difficult time.

[day2day]

You are never alone Look up :holy: Thank you for message for parents sometimes they do need reminding. If it ok may I pray for you?

[Velcro]

Thank you. I am going to need all the prayers I can get over the next ?? weeks.

[Mela'h]

Please Know that you are in my prayers.... For healing and restoration Velcro:prayer:

Thank you for your words to parents. They are obviously well learned in your life. ~~Peace - Shalom to you:prayer:

[Ahavah]

Sorry to hear about your difficult time in life.
Did you ever read the thread about..."Party at the Shimshon house?" It's next Wed.... and your more than welcome to come.
Maybe a time to get out and be with friends would help?
Wish I could do more. Blessings.

[MyLittleWonders]

Oh Velcro, whatever you are going through (I cannot imagine), I will pray for HaShem's faithful hand to pull you through. I pray that He prunes what He needs to prune, but does not leave you bare. I pray that He surrounds you with His mighty arms and protects you from hasatan. I pray that you come through this on the other side stronger and more faithful, healthier and more full of His goodness and grace than you were when you began. We are here for you ... ***hugs***

[visionary]

May the cloud that is hanging over Velcro's head disappate and let your light shine upon Velcro like an anointing from on high. May you, O Lord, stay so close that the "peace that passes all understanding" be felt in this most trying of times. May the cleansing of your Holy Spirit be upon Velcro's soul and may you Lord be victorious in all this that is happeing to Velcro.

Amen Please keep us posted.

[AlikhnKwizad]

Hey Velcro- This probably won;'t help much... but I am also going through the most difficult time in my life (so far). And I know what you mean about the pruning, and being left bare, and even the "parents" part... although I have no idea about the specifics. Hang in there- even if it looks like the ride just might kill you- hang in there! Shalom:)

[Talmidah]

Hey Velcro- This probably won;'t help much... but I am also going through the most difficult time in my life (so far).

Same here :cry:

[Tishri1]

:cry::cry:I am interseding for you sweet Velcro, I will even fast for your situation tomorrow I wuv you girlfriend!:hug:

[MyZz]

Dear Velcro,I' m praying hard for you and for all of us here who need prayers.
Seems to me that there is quite a lot of pruning and stuff going on in our lives the past couple of weeks from what I have been experiencing myself and from reading this thread.
:groupray:

[Torah]

Yes! This “pruning” always happens around G-ds feast days, You are in our prayers Velcro.

L-rd heal Velcro in her mind & in her body. In Yeshua name be healed. :amen:

[Bon]

Is it just me or is anyone else suddenly feeling a little anxious about this time that we live in?

I must confess that I am less than adequate in most areas of my personal life, including motherhood....

Velcro, your parenting advice hit me where it hurts. Lately I have been weighed down with thoughts of bad parenting....I find myself yelling at my son all day because he purposely does the opposite of my commands. (mmm sounds familiar).

I am having visions of this continuing through to his teenage years and then suddenly, one day, I find that there is a great chasm between us. Hatred has built up in his heart and he rebels.

I love my son, and never thought that parenting would be so hard as I am finding it. I have to fight against every fibre of my being to be the kind of mother that is opposite to my own mother....and yet, I see myself acting just like she did. It breaks my heart.

Velcro, life is difficult isn't it? When we look at it on the outside, it seems like it should be so simple....but it isn't, it's complex in so many differing ways for all of us.

We're intricate little creatures, affected by generations past, and by our interactions with those around us every day of our lives.

I pray that you are able to sort through some of these little intricacies in your life, the ones that are bothering you...and like you say, prue away as much of the dead and useless parts of it that are causing your troubles at this time.

Shalom and love in Yahshua

Bon

[Shimshon]

Bon, I understand you were showing compasion to Velcro, and I pray for both of your well being.I am having visions of this continuing through to his teenage years and then suddenly, one day, I find that there is a great chasm between us. Hatred has built up in his heart and he rebels.

Bon, this is the lie the Adversary is speaking to you. His lies never stop, but your attention to them, the importance you place in them does change with help from Yeshua. It comes from discerning the thoughts that cross your mind. If they speak against the heart of YHVH they are not from him. And in no way does Abba desire your children to go through what you have described. This is a lie the Adversary speaks to many I fear. Even me he has tried to get me to believe this. But I will not listen to him.

I love my son, and never thought that parenting would be so hard as I am finding it. I have to fight against every fibre of my being to be the kind of mother that is opposite to my own mother....and yet, I see myself acting just like she did. It breaks my heart.
And there you have it. The heart of Elohim. This is exactly the way he feels about us. We break his everloving heart by not doing what he so lovingly asks. And he shows us grace to the utmost, love "Elohim" Style. ;) :)

Your Abba knows your heart, he created it, he gave you your desires. Thank him for the promises he spoke to us. Rebuke the Adversary as any good child of Elohim should. With your mouth shut, turn the other way and forget the words he spoke. Because they are smoke and mirrors as far as Yeshua is concerned. Hang in there guys, it gets darkest before the dawn, and JOY comes in the morning!!!! :hug:

[Tishri1]

Shimshon is right! We need to discipline our ears to hear when we are agreeing with the devil and repent and turn around and put our backside to those thought patterns.

Then ask YHVH for help in times of need. Don't borrow trouble from your anscestors as you are a new woman in Yeshua, the old has past away...newness of life has come...

It just takes practice, and dilegence, and becoming quick to pray and repent. Don't let bitterness become your constant companion...

change your mind , repent ,and times of refreshing will come.

[MyZz]

Interesting u say that Torah cos I did find it began around Passover time...
Bon I dont know how old your son is but I do know it is very stressful being a mum sometimes...they will go through a phase when all they do is test us or become very wearing on our patience...and I know from experience that yelling just makes them immune to the yelling,but hey sometimes we do need to let off steam too..I will be praying for u too that you may experience more of the shalom that you are in need of right now...:hug:

[talmidim]

You haven't posted in two days! Come back! Let us know that you are all right... or at least doing better. We are praying for you! :groupray:

[Tishri1]

I feel alot more temptations during the Passover season too, it's good that we all pray for eachother here as the days of "counting" pass by

Velcro and all you guys I am praying for ua all that we can stick this out and reach the goal, win the race and all that other good stuff Paul said

[Bon]

:) :prayer:

[MyLittleWonders]

Yes, hasatan's attacks are fiercer and more persistent this time of year ... I was talking with my husband the other day after we had been bickering, and I was telling him that hasatan is really, really, really angry right now and we have to be even stronger in our prayer and our reading of the Word. I can feel it tonight even ... he whispers in our ears, he shouts from the rooftops ...and they are all LIES!

Visionary, and all others, I continue to pray. :)

[Sephania]

I myself have been having a horrible week. sunday we wanted to take out our new car ( 1982) BAruch HaShem! to the park and have a picnic. Do you know that my husband lost the keys for over an hour and we searched and searched and got more and more upset, prayed but we were just in a turmoil, finally found them a hour later. And my husband had told me he had been praying at work that day and asked for a renewal in his heart. He said he felt so light afterwards and different, and I could tell when he came home, but my PC had been messing up and all kinds of stuff and then the keys and he just got hold of us and wham! Then monday stuff continued to happen and tuesday I kept dropping things or doing things wrong, I dropped my cell phone in the Dogs dish of water and the day just got worse and worse and yesterday , Oy, I don't even want to talk about it. I just think that HasAtan is mad because there are millions of believers around the world that have been praying leading up to the ( 10 days before) penticost and the global prayer day. He is trying to stop it anyway he can by all kinds of distractions.


But pray we must!

[Sephania]

I just realized, Vel wrote this on May 7th, which was the last day of the week of Aviyah, ( G-d is my father) and this week is the week of Yeshua! Ending at sundown on Sat, and then begins the week of Shekanyahu ( the glory of the L-RD!) of which the first day is the day of Shavuot for those on the land calendar!

WOW, no wonder HaSatan is busy trying to distract us. PoWER, POWER< PRAY or be PREY!!!!!!!

[AlikhnKwizad]

"Don't borrow trouble from your anscestors" ......

That is SO TRUE! And SO realavant in my situation!!!!

And our family has been going through a VERY tough time. I am suprised to hear so many others are as well.

I agree the timming of the Day of Prayer, and the holy days connection makes so much sense!

Last night my son woke up several times crying in the middle of the night (unusual for him)... Then this morning he had a stinky diapper and somehow (I have no idea, it's the first time this has happened) the contents of the diaper fell down his pant leg! (Poor guy! :() So I gave him a bath... As I was drying him off & cleaning his ears I looked down, and there was big spider on the towel!!!

That's just within the first few hours of the day!!! Our whole month has been like this!

So if the enemy is messing with us- what do we do to stay strong??? What do we pray for?

[Sephania]

Protection

"Deliver us from evil"

Shalom

May the L-Rd make his face to shine upon you and give you Peace

Wisdom

If you lack wisdom, ask the L-RD, he will not reprouch you for the lack therefo, but will give generously

Strength in times of Trouble

But the salvation of the righteous is of the L-RD, he is their strength in the time of trouble. He shall deliver you from the wicked, the evil one because you put your trust in Him.

Endurance
He that shall endure to the end shall be saved.

Remember: judgement begins at the house of G-d, we must be tested now, to be strong when the time comes.

Remember too: NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER, THUS SAYS THE L-RD!

[AlikhnKwizad]

Very Good! Thank you! :)

[Tishri1]

So if the enemy is messing with us- what do we do to stay strong??? What do we pray for?Ask the Father to shine his Torah on our hearts...and if we have been buying any of the lies that put us into bondage ( fear/unbelief or bitterness/resentment/unforgiveness, even jelousy and envy can be a stronghold of sin) then we need to repent of those things, as that is where the enemy has a hook in us. We give up our rights to the blessings of our freedom in Yeshua when we purpose and choose to stay unrepentant in any of these harmful sins.

here is a prayer I pray when I get caught in a sin like Unforgiveness:

Dear Heavenly Father, in the name of Yeshua, I purpose and choose to forgive (__________name) for (____________what they did).
I release (___________name). I cancel his /her debts and obligations to me in this issue.
Dear ABBA, I ask you to forgive me for my bitterness toward (___________name) in (____________this situation).
In the name of Yeshua, I cancel all Satan's power and authority over me in this issue because I have forgiven him/her. And God has forgiven me. It is over and done with.
ABBA send your power and heal my heart. And tell me your truth about this situation. (I will usually wait on the Father to talk to my heart then and sit in his arms for a while)

This prayer came from a book called "Biblical Foundations of Freedom" by Art Mathias which I highly recommend for the times we are in these days.